wI couldn't believe that happened yesterday. All I could do was think about Craig coming to my house and kissing me the way he did, especially when his wedding is this weekend coming up. I was so out of it I didn't even hear Shelly come into the office.
"Hello earth to Ryan ..." She said waving her hands in my face.
"oh shit Shell I am sorry whats up?"
"I don't know you tell me."
"Its just a lot on my mind." I said. I went back to reading my emails on potential designers.
"Oh really like what?"
"Nothing Shell......so how are things with you haven't talked to you in awhile you good?" I decided to change the subject. I did not want Shelly to know about the kiss that Craig and I shared. I didn't feel like hearing her mouth, I know she would see right through me. I couldn't keep him off of my mind i like Chris a lot but Craig and I had history. he was my first love, my first everything for that matter, I know what I did was wrong but it felt so good. When Chris came over right after Craig left I was beyond turned on, I jumped that man as soon as he walked through the door. I felt so ashamed of myself, I don't know why Chris wanted me when I am thinking about the next man.
"Yea the dick must be good since you in and out of consciousness." Shelly said giggling, I stuck up my middle finger. "No thank you I'm good." she laughed walking out my office. When she was walking away I noticed something different about her, I hate to say it but my homegirl was getting fatter. I know I haven't been paying much attention with this wedding stuff going on but damn......I pushed it to the back of my mind and went back to work. I wanted to get out of here early so I could stop by and grab my dress and then I was planning a romantic dinner for Chris and I. I am going to admit that he is the most sweetest man I have ever met, especially since I am using him so my family can stay off of my back. I was thinking maybe j could make it official with him I was going to ask him what he thinks about that when I see him tonight.
Shelly *****
I don't know how long I was going to be able to keep this from my best friend in the while wide world. We been friends since we were twerking in the womb. See my mom and Ryan's mother Rachel were best friends also, both found out they were pregnant and promised that their kids were going to be the best of friends. They both kept their word and here we are, only thing is Ryan's mother died of Cancer when she was 12. That shit had my girl broken down, I hate to have to have to see her so broken. I am not going to lie and say that I don't know how she feels. Right now I am keeping a secret from her and don't know when or if I am going to be able to tell her. I clutched my stomach since it was growling I reaches in my purse to see if I could find that snack bar I threw in there this morning. I found it tore open the wrapper taking a big bite.
" mmhnmmhmm." I moaned with my eye closed.
"Damn if only I could hear those sounds more often then your nagging ." the deep voice that I have become so annoyed by on a regular basis. I opened my eyes to be staring at Jamal, my worse nightmare and sometimes fuck buddy, oh and also Ryan's best Boy Friend.
" What do you want." I said with mouthful of granola bar.
" We need to talk."
"no we dont. I said. I walked over to a box of clothes that I was working on. I was working on my display for the front window.
"Listen I really think we need to discuss what is going to happen when........"
"sssshhhhh, what the hell Jamal why don't you say it louder I don't think the barber shop down the street heard you." I said rolling my eyes. I looked in the back and then came back to him.
