Ryan:
I was just about to get in the bed when I hear a loud banging at my door. I looked at the clock on my wall and it said three o’clock. Who and the hell can be banging on my door at this hour, I was scared I didn’t know if I should open or not. I tip toed over to the front.
“BOOM<BOO<BOOM”
I jumped clutching my chest and rounding belly. That’s it whoever it is going to get cussed the fuck out. I swung the door opened and there he stood I couldn’t believe my eyes. He turned around and looked at me then his eyes trailed down to my stomach. I tried to close the rob I was wearing, not much to hide the belly was out there.
“So you going to invite me in?” he was high……this nigga was flying on cloud nine right now.
“Listen if you came here to……”
“I aint here for all that….you going to let me or what?” he said. With too much attitude. I rolled my eyes at him and moved to the side. He walked into my apartment going to straight to the living room. I closed the door and followed behind him I stood there with my arms crossed over my chest. We stared at each other for what seemed like forever, I didn’t know if I should speak first or let him.
“Ok….”
“Can I say something first.”
“If you’re going to sit in here and think that I am going to allow you to talk to me the way you did at your house I don’t think so.” I said. I watch him watch me I don’t even know if he can see me because his eyes were so low.
“I came here to let you explain….to hear your side of the story….. I want……to give you a chance to explain….what…”
“I don’t love him Chris, I never did I did but not know those feelings are gone I mean when I seen him to be honest a lot of unfinished feelings came surfacing to the top.” I said. I looked at Chris and he was lighting up another blunt. Damn isn’t he high enough.
“Why?”
“Why? What?”
“Why did you have unfinished feelings if you said you didn’t feel nothing?”
“When Craig and I first got together it was great he showed me so much, especially since I was young and dumb. He was my first and I was in love with him he was there for me when my mother died, he was gentle and caring to me and then he changed as soon as I told him I was pregnant. He wanted me to get rid of it said that he was not ready for a baby. I told him that I was not going to do that so for the first five months of my pregnancy he would taunt me tell me how worthless I was, sometimes even hit me. Did I leave him no something made me believe he loved me and that he was just mad for a moment. One day I was on my way to my appointment to see what I was having he came over told me that he was going to come with me. I was so happy I thought he finally changed and he was accepting the fact that we were going to be parents. While I was walking down the stairs he stopped me whispered in my ear and said ‘I told your dumb ass to get rid of it I guess I have to do it myself’ and he pushed me down the stairs. I was knocked uncoucious and when I woke up I had lost my baby. ” I started twiddling my fingers. Bringing back this made me want to hate him all over again. The moment when I woke up and noticed that my child was missing and the nurses was not bringing my baby to me from the nursery my whole world came crashing down. I hated Craig for a long time and it was the last time I seen him. He came up to the hospital and acted like I tripped on something on the stairs and he tried to catch me but it was too late and he lost his grip on me. I knew it was lie but I believed him like an idiot. Chris got up from the couch and walked over to me, I stepped back, and he chuckled. I didn’t know what was so funny but I forgot this dude was high as shit right now.
