Magus Verbosus (TBNRFrags)

Preston

Alexai's POV

I woke up the next morning with Preston next to me. With Roza now officially living with us. He has already been tormented and treated like shit. And I didn't like the idea of him being on his own. He was so fragile yet he had been trying to sound so tough. I feel like he needs someone to actually be there for him. But I'm not sure if I should be that person. Yeah I know how he feels. Through being tormented by others for being gay. But that's where the similarities end. He is a lot more intelligent then I am. He is a lot more patient then I am. But he's also paranoid as fuck about everything. I feel like he is half a child trapped in an adult body.

Preston: "Alex are you ok?"

I turned around and looked at him. He was so beautiful it was uncanny. Seriously I've been here for three days already. And I have a hot guy in my bed. Sounds like those colleges in the movies I've seen where everyone sleeps with everyone else. Only no alcohol is involved... I wonder if we can get a hold of that?

Alex: "I'm fine. Just thinking about you."

Preston: "Why are you thinking about me? You shouldn't be. It's not good thinking about things that aren't worth your time."

How the hell does he do that. It makes me so upset. I understand he would feel that way, Feel like he was useless. But that's just a side effect of being bullied. After a while two things can happen. You either begin to believe them. Start putting yourself down until it get's to the point of depression. Then it is even harder to try to pull yourself out of that void that you have become so accustomed to. Or the other thing happens, Which I am so glad he hasn't done. You become a bully. You start thinking it's normal to bully others because you have become use to it. It starts to mold your mind. I remember when I was bullied a lot. But. I was too smart to become too depressed as I would talk myself out of situations. I became a bully. And I don't think there has been anything in my life I have ever regretted with enough hatred it makes me hate myself. I pulled myself closer to Preston while he shuffled away slightly.

Alex: "Preston you just slept in the same bed with me. Your arm is still wrapped around my waist. Are you ok?"

Preston: "Please don't kick me out."

Alex: "What?"

Preston: "I won't do it again. I'm sorry."

He went to get up out of bed before I grabbed the hem of his track suit pants and pulled him back down. I felt him flinch but I sat up and wrapped my arms around his chest.

Alex: "I don't know what you were like in previous years. I don't know what these people did to you. And I have no idea how long you have been like this. But I am going to tell you now. I won't inform you. I'm telling you Preston. I will make you smile. And I will help you to learn to love yourself. You are so beautiful, And genuinely hilarious. What have these people done to ruin your pretty head?"

Preston: "You don't understand Alex. I've done horrible things at this school. Things that would make you question everything. And I don't want to make the same mistake with you. I want to be your friend. I want to make you smile. I can't explain it but you make me so happy. I know we have not long met. But when you talk my whole body starts to heat up. Like Ethan lit a flame inside me and it slowly spreads. And when I kissed you. I felt my heart stop beating. And when you got hurt I was so upset. But I don't know why. It doesn't make any sense."

It made sense to me. It made perfect sense to me. What do I do now. He has a crush on me. When he first looked at me. I do believe in love at first sight. But I have only wanted to help him. I haven't felt that way towards someone. Maybe because I have been too busy looking at him like a frail person. And not like someone who doesn't need help. As a strong and kind soul. That I was masked by that feeling of protection. Maybe that's what is happening with him as well. That feeling of protection I give him.