gina

before

My mom. I love her to death, but I wish she wasn't so violently drinking. I wish she wasn't taking her anger out on me. When I wake up, I wanna hear "good morning" not "I hate you. You're such a disappointment."

But I guess we don't all get what we want, right?

My wall used to be full of pictures of my happy family. My older brother, his arms on the shoulders of my mom and dad. My mom and dad smiling the biggest smile I'd ever seen. And me, in my dad's arms, much happier than right now.

I wish Dad didn't die. I wish my brother didn't die. I wish the car accident never happened. I wish I didn't survive. I wish the car accident took my life instead of my brother and my father's life.

God, I wish I was dead.