The Ceo's Game

Prologue

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So here is the Prologue. Please vote if you like it up until now.

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The road we take,

The dreams we make,

The life we fake,

So that we can break.

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Dear Milo,

I left you.

There, I said it.

And trust me it is indeed hard....

I honestly don't know why I choose to say good-bye this way. I guess I could keep trying to explain that I did it for you or I did it for me, but there is no point. We both know the truth. I am a COWARD.

I choose to run, to try and protect the little bits of my heart that remained intact. I couldn't handle the pain and for most of times I am happy with myself. I am proud of what I did. I keep telling to myself : 'you did good Rose, you have chosen yourself and that is how it should always be.'.

And trust me when I say that there were those days, when the silence was too much and my thoughts were too loud and I couldn't help but find myself staring at the blank walls in my apartment thinking about the great 'what if'.

What if I would stay? But then I would always remember what you did and realize that my only regret is that I never got to tell you everything that I wanted to and everything that I had to tell you.

So here it is:

It's okay if I am not the one you want. It's okay that I am not the one you need now nor tomorrow. And it is also okay that I will not be the one you introduce to your parents or make plans with.

Because as silly as it seems, I understand you. I really do. I am not enough and I never was....and I am not mad at you. I am mad at myself, because I didn't see it sooner.

I let you go. You are free now. You could have been free for a long time if you just would have told me. There was no need for you to go behind my back. No reason to sneak or lie. I get it. You are too young, too foolish and I am asking way too much from you.

So go then. Go taste other lips, go touch other bodies and get lost in other eyes. Go party and drink like you always wanted to, but could never do because of me. Go and take home other girls every night. Do whatever it takes to get it out of your system. Love somebody else, maybe then you won't be afraid of falling anymore. Share your dreams with someone else in hope they will support you. Go and tell them your plans and fantasies...

But don't tell them about us. That is all I ask from you. Keep it to yourself. Don't compare us and don't try finding other flaws. Don't share the plans that we made together. Come up with new ones.

Do whatever it takes in order to grow, but don't expect me to wait for you. I meant it when I said I am not mad at you, maybe disappointed, but mostly in myself because I believed in you.

Honestly I don't think I will ever stop loving you, possibly because I don't think I can. But don't do that again, don't freak out. All I said was that I love you, never did I say "please love me back". That is something I thought you always understood. Just because I told you I loved you on that fateful night did not mean you owed me your love.

So I don't expect anything from you. Especially now when I am all packed and ready to go. But do know that I have my own life and my own dreams. I have goals to achieve and as much of a cliché as it sounds, I got places to be and people to meet, new things to experience and get hurt a little more.

So it's okay if you don't regret it now. It's okay if for now I am not the one that makes you smile anymore, or the one for you to take on dates.

All of this because I know you. I know your soul better that anyone else.

And I know that a few years from now you would be staring through the window at those stars I loved so much and curse at yourself because you will not be able to find anything in your life that could resemble my brown eyes and crooked smile and you'll wonder why you ever let me go.

But by then, I would be long gone.

So good-bye.

I swear I don't regret a thing. It was all worth it. Even the tears and crushed hopes. I wouldn't take anything back.

Because I love you.

I really do.

Yours forever,

Rose.

With those last words I seal the letter and placed it onto his bed where I am sure he will find it only after coming home with his friends from the bar.

I can't believe I am actually doing this. My Heart is beating so hard in my chest that for a brief moment I was actually worried myself.

A few traitorous tears escaped my eyes and fall slowly down my cheeks staining them in the process with mascara and lost hope.

He was right, I am weak.

But not this time.

This time I will decide for myself. This time I puts myself first and do what is best for me.

With those last thoughts I look one more time at the place that used to be my home for the last 2 years and with a heavy heart but a somewhat new hope for the future I lock the door for the last time and start walking towards a new beginning.