Sleepwalking

Chapter 19- Athena

After Ron left, I sat in Trevor's bed and thought about that day. I came back into Trevor's life as quickly as I left it and he wanted me back the moment he looked at me.

The moment I looked at him, I was terrified of what was going to happen. I had woken up in a strange place with a man I didn't know screaming at me. I had no idea the man who I had been hiding from all my life from was on the other side of my bike helmet.

That was only a week and a half ago. And today we are boyfriend and girlfriend. In the moment it sounded so right, but now remembering Trevor relies on me to be his his girl friend, his best friend, his parents, his brother... It makes me nauseous. I don't have half of those things myself and I have to be that for someone else? It doesn't seem fair and I want out. Just as I stood to start running, Trevor returned from hunting with a friend.

"There she is! Exactly where I need her to be." He smiled and wrapped his arms around me. He kissed my forehead. "What's wrong, babe?"

"N-nothing, baby. How was the hunting?" I shook slightly.

He grinned. "It was fantastic. You are going with me tomorrow." He pushed me back onto the bed. "Where were you going?" He said as he took off his shirt.

I got back up. "The bathroom. I'll be right back."

I went into the bathroom and texted Lester that I would be at his house in the morning. I took a deep breath and returned to the bedroom.

Trevor laid on the bed with only his tighty whities on. I took another deep breath as I grinned. "Hello, Trevor."

"Hellooooooooo Athena. Would you be a dear and remove your clothes?"

I nervously laughed, before nervously sweating. "Like, all of them?"

"I would prefer all of them, babe." He stopped smiling. "Athena, what is wrong?"

"Nothing, I just haven't had sex in a very long time."

"You're nervous? I remember you being great."

"That is the thing, T. You're the last person I slept with." I sat on the bed.

"10 years?" He looked at me in disbelief.

"What, you think I had any relationships after you? I'm deranged T. No one wants me. Besides you of course."

"Because we are the same." He said, sitting up. He reached for my hand, but I declined.

"No we aren't. We have almost nothing in common."

He grabbed my hand. "That isn't true. We have everything in common."

"Besides killing our fathers and thinking Michael was in the ground, nothing!" I screamed at him before storming onto the couch.

He walked out a second later, putting on sweatpants. "Listen, I haven't been around a young lady in a while so I'm not used to the mood swings and the tantrums yet. Cut me some god damn slack, Athena. And yeah, you are a pussy and can't shoot a gun. But I'm gonna help you with that! I'm an excellent teacher just like you."

"What have I taught anyone?"

"You taught me I can't be alone. I need someone at every hour of the day and night any time I call. After you left I had no one. Wade? I killed his meth head friends. Ron? I convinced him to end his marriage. I fucked both of their lives up so I wouldn't be alone because you left me and losing you taught me I need someone."

I hugged him. "I'm sorry T. I didn't mean to yell at you. And you are right, we have more in common than what I said. I'm just feeling really negative right now. Lester called me earlier today and told me he has news-"

"You told me earlier, babe. And we are gonna go find out what it is as soon as my important business deal is settled. Tomorrow I'll get you out of the trailer for a little while, how does that sound?" He sat on the couch with me and took my hand.

"Killing animals for no reason is messed up, Trevor."

"There is a reason I'm taking you hunting with me and Cletus. There may be a time when things go wrong and I won't be able to protect-"

"Yeah, yeah I'll go. Just don't talk like that."

"See we have that it common too. I don't want to think about losing you either." He pulled me onto his lap, and kissed me. "What else is on your mind, Athena?"

"I don't know what is bothering me so much. I'm just anxious to find out what Lester knows. What if we can't get him out?"

He wrapped his arms tighter around me. "I'm scared too."

"I feel awful that I said all we had in common is shooting our fathers. I shouldn't have said that-"

"Babe. It's fine. You were right about that and about us both thinking Mikey was dead." He smiled at me. "All I wanted to know was what was in the coffin, so I went to see-" He cut himself off. 

"See what? What did you go to see?"

"Michael, I asked Michael." He looked unsure, and quickly avoided eye contact.

"T. What the fuck?" He moved uncomfortably so I stood up and yelled in his face, "What did he say?"

"Sand? Glass... Gee I don't know exactly what. He didn't either. Your guess is as good as mine, Athena."

"Why didn't you fly the fuck up there to Ludendorff to dig up the grave? Is there one?"

"Athena..."

"Why don't we go now and find out for ourselves. Or do you really know? Trevor, you know and you aren't telling me."

"Athena, I promise you I don't know what is in the coffin. I did get angry with Michael when he didn't know, but we assume it is something that is equal to the weight of a body. Can we just let it go for now, Athena?"

"Okay, okay." I sat next to him and laid my head on his shoulder. "Trev, do you love me?"

He sighed. "Yes."