11:11 • phan

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*trigger warning*

"Daniel! Why are you home so late?" My father sneered at me when I walked through the front door. It's obvious that he has been drinking so I know that it's just going to be worse for me.

"I was at my girlfriends house, sorry it won't happen again." I spoke quietly, terrified of my father.

He smiled at me, "oh okay. Go get your faggot of a brother. I need a word with him." I nod my head and make my way to kellins room.

I don't see why my dad thinks he's gay. Because it's a the complete opposite. I'm the gay one and he's the straight one.

I set my backpack in my room and walk down the hall to kellins. "H-hey kellin, dad wants you." I spoke soft. My brother didn't deserve this. He opens the door, tears already brimming his eyes. "Dan please, I don't want to get hurt anymore!" He desperately clings on to me as I walk him down the hall towards our 'dad'.

"I'm so sorry Kellin." He looks up at me, and smiles. I couldn't do this. I let go of my brother and run down the hall to my room, slamming the door and locking it.

I could hear the slaps, kicks, punches, and screams that were coming from my brother. I felt so useless. Here I am sitting in my room while my brother gets beaten for no known reason at all.

It doesn't stop either. I'm desperately trying to block out the pleads of my name to help him, but nothing works. It gets louder and louder, I turn my music up but I still hear the horrid noises from my living room.

Tears streaming down my face, I rush to the bathroom in my room and shut the door, and slid down and cried. I silently screamed for help for my brother.

I'm useless.

I pull out my black box from under the sink where I kept my blades and lighters. I picked up the thin piece of cool metal between my thumbs and dragged it across my wrist.

I don't stop until both arms and legs and my stomach are covered with cuts. I smile in content even though I shouldn't. Blood is pouring out of me and for a second I didn't want to stop it. I kinda wanted to die.

"Dan! Open the door now!" I hear Carly banging on the door from my room. I jump, not thinking she would be here. I don't have energy at all to move. So I stay there, on the floor.

"Dammit Dan!" The bathroom door opens and she's crying. I furrow my eyebrows in confusion. "W-hat? How did you get in here?" I ask her. She doesn't answer me.

She helps me up onto the toilet to sit there while she starts a bath for me. With tears in her eyes she goes to take off my shirt, careful for my cuts.

My eyes go wide and I stop her with the little energy I have. "You can't undress me! You'll see me- you know, naked." She rolls her eyes and smile. "Dan, I'm not into you, you are like my brother. Don't worry." I nod my head, to tired to argue.

As she finished taking all my clothes off she helps me into the bath. I hiss in pain, the water stinging my fresh cuts.

She helps clean up my cuts while I lay there, thinking about everything that's happened today.

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Short sad chapter but the next one will be happy and have phan I promise :)

QOTD: hows your weekend been?

AOTD: well I've been binge watching Dan and Phil so great lol