11:11 • phan

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Video of Kenzie and I meeting
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I woke up in the comfort of a pair of strong arms. For a minute I forgot where I was. I jumped a bit but slowly relaxed, not wanting to wake Phil.

But why did we do this? We both have girlfriends yet we are cuddling in the same bed. I don't want Phil to hate me so I carefully pry myself out of the bed and out to the living room. "Hey Kellin, you okay?" I asked once I saw Him sitting on the couch staring at absolutely nothing.

He didn't reply so I ask once again, "Kellin? Hello? What's wrong? Are you okay?" I ask slightly more worried. He just shakes his head 'no.' I immediately run over to him and pull him into my arms as he breaks down crying.

"Kellin what happened?" I ask again. He pulls out his phone and starts typing. Before he could show me his phone my eyes go wide and I cover my mouth. "No, no, no, no, no, no," I mumbled. "No! This can't be happening!" I finally yell which caused Phil to wake up and run into the living room finding me and Kellin both crying.

"What happened?" He asks, concern filling his voice. I look up with him with watery eyes. I slightly smile when looking at him. His hair isn't in a fringe, it's in a quiff instead since he was sleeping, he is wearing his glasses which make him look adorable. He has Pokemon pajama pants with a adventure time shirt and he's rubbing his eyes. He's the most beautiful thing I've ever laid eyes on.

I shake my head from those thoughts, "my brother. He won't talk to me! He's using his phone to talk; I don't know what happened just all of a sudden-" I began crying again.

Phils face drops a bit and he walks over to Kellin, "hi Kellin. I know we haven't known each other long but I hope you know you can trust me and you can tell- or text me anything." Kellin smiles and hugs him which warms my heart.

He soon pulls out his phone and shows Phil and I.

"What's the point in talking? Whenever I say something dad just yells at me. He called me this morning and yelled at me. He called me horrible names and said I'm worthless. What did I do guys? Am I really that bad? Why does my own dad that is supposed to love me, just hate me more than anything? I'm probably better off dead."

When we were done reading, Phil replied before I could say anything.
"Kellin don't ever say that you are better off dead. I know it's hard being in that situation- I've been in something similar. As cliche as it sounds it will get better. Your dad won't be around forever, the pain will go away, and life will be easier. You are here for a reason. And it's up to you to figure that out." Phil smiles at him.

Kellin starts crying and hugs Phil, "I love you Phil." And I couldn't help but to cry then. Phil pulls me into the hug and we all have a emotional morning but somehow brought us all closer together. Without Phil, I honestly don't know what I would do.

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In the beginning I said there will be short chapters :) I'll update hopefully tomorrow too!  Xx

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