drive ♢ muke ✔️

xvii

"apparently, i'm allowed to talk to you now." bryana smiles cheerfully with ashton clinging onto her waist tightly.

"congrats," i reply dully.

"come on michael, aren't you happy?" bryana beams. "we're allowed to talk."

"uh-huh." i continue with the same lack of enthusiasm.

"cheer up michael. why do you sound so glum?" bryana pouts her glossy bottom lip.

"because i realized how shit of a friend you actually are," i reply stiffly.

"what?" bryana gasps, looking appalled. m

"you were willing to drop me out of your life, simply because your boyfriend asked me too. you're nothing more than a lying, un-loyal snake!" i glare harshly at her as i grab my bag and walk away.

"i hope you're aware that you just ruined my two year anniversary with luke!" bryana yells after me as tears well up in her brown eyes.

apparently her anniversary day is on saturday, two days from now.

"whatever," i huff angrily.

"it's bad enough that luke decided to take extra shifts that day, but now my closest friend decides to turn his back on me?" bryana screams furiously.

my heart pangs with pity when i notice how despaired and desperate she sounds. she sounds truly distressed that her boyfriend is ditching her on their special day.

"at least i still have ashton. while luke is away working, i'll invite ashton over for a fuck. i'm not going to be miserable on the day i deserve to be happy." bryana sniffles, wiping away tears from her eyes.

"inviting another boy over to have sex on your anniversary day. i'm not a genius but that sounds like a fucking idiotic thing to do." i state rudely.

"he's the only one not giving me a cold shoulder," bryana whimpers as she turns around and runs away.

"look at what you did," ashton purses his lips as he runs over his lover.

i roll my green eyes and continue trekking forwards to my next class. my phone dings uncontrollably.

calum: I SEE VIVIAN

calum: FUCKING HELL

calum: HELP ME BITCH

calum: SHE LOOKS SO FINE

calum: MOTHER FUCKING TONE DEAF BALLS

me: chill the fuck out

calum: WHAT DO I DO?

calum: SHE'S WALKING OVER

calum: SHE SMILED AT ME

calum: MY HEART STOPPED BEATING

calum: WHY IS SHE SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL

calum: HELP ME YOU DUMB WHITE BOY

me: first of all, close your damn phone and talk to her

me: second of all, we're out of milk so buy some more

me: third of all, i'm a pretty smart white boy..

calum stopped answering after that. i assume he took my first suggestion.

thoughts swarm my head and i can't help but feel sad. it seems like everyone was happy. everyone but me.

i sigh disappointedly because i know that calum and vivian will eventually get together and leave me alone.

again.

i will never stop being alone, i will never find someone for myself.