Love is the Cure

13.

It's been a week and I haven't gone to school since the incident with Amber. My homework gets sent to me so I'm not behind.

I just can't face rejection again I can't.

***flashback to freshman year***

I sat in the hospital gown, a tube that was now breathing for me poked into my nose and my stomach was sore from the surgery.

"Knock knock." My mom walked into my hospital room "Ambers here."

As if it was rehearsed she walked in and exchanged a glance with my mom before my mom left the room, the door closed behind her.

"Hey" she whispered but didn't take a step closer.

"Hey."

"Is that tube always going to be there?" She was mumbling now.

"Yes unless some miracle happens."

"You're crippled now." It was more a statement and less a question.

"I guess, but I still me. Just not football captain me." I was starting to panic.

"But you can't do everything you used to you just can't. I can't handle that."

"You?" I about choked in shock "you can't deal with my lungs failing and one day I may never wake up then next morning you can't deal with me dying?"

"I'm sorry... Ryan and I"

"Ryan? As in my best fried Ryan?!" I interrupted her (yes that Ryan who's an ass now used to be my best friend.)

"Yeah... We've been hanging out this last week when you were in for surgeries."

"Oh that's nice. Real nice lets go fuck around with my boyfriend best friend while my boyfriend laying on a fucking operation table with his fucking chest cut open while some guys dressed in hospital gear are playing around with his fucking intestines." I was on fire (not literally.)

"I..."

"I nothing get the fuck out of my sight you disgust me." I interrupted her.

"But."

"LEAVE!"

***end of flashback***

I stood in my shower the heat pouring down my back as this memory replayed over and over in my mind.

What is wrong with me?

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My beautiful people!!!

Is Amber dumb and rude for doing that or would you have done the same thing? Would you be able to handle it? I know I could because my boyfriend used to have cancer as a matter of fact ^.^ he's clean now. 

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