BROKEN By: RONNEA STILES

James

James 20

I pulled up on the curb to see Queen, she looked very tired and weak. I got out and opened the door. She looked around then got in. I got back into my car and proceeded to drive when I noticed Queen shivering.
"You want some heat?"
She shook her head as I turned the heat on. It was very quiet until she start to speak.
"I'm sorry bout last time"
"It's fine nothing that I'm not used to".
"It's not that I want to hurt you James . . . it's just we have two lifestyles".
I stopped the car and pulled over into an alley.
"What fucking! Is that your lifestyle!?Because that's all you ever want to do when you come around. Then you just up and leave!"
"James you don't know me! Like at all. I'm not the girl you need".
"Well excuse me, I'm sorry for falling in love with you".
I placed my head on the steering wheel when Queen grabbed my chin and made me look into her dark brown eyes. She then gently kissed my lips. Her lips were soft and moist.
"You don't need to love me".
"I can't help it".
"You're this godly boy and I'll fuck your life up".
"Why do you think you will?"
"Because God doesn't love me . . . that's why! All my life I've been so fucked up! Ever since I was a child nothing has changed!"
"Queen God loves you he's just not going to make your life perfect you have to try and be a better person".
"You don't know shit about having a bad life so don't tell me God loves me cuss he doesn't!"
I couldn't believe Queen was saying this.
"Queen God does love you he just doesn't love the stuff you do!"
"Oh what the hell! He's never loved me he's put me through so much shit, you don't know nothing about me you church boy!"
"You right I don't. So why don't you tell me huh!?? You got all these bruises over your body but you never tell me who's hurting you . . . you must like getting hurt because you keep going back to that same person!"
"Fuck you".
Queen got out as rain started to pour from the sky. I followed her.
"No don't you walk away from me. That's all you know how to do!"
"James just leave me alone!"
"No I won't! You're always dragging me into your mess then call me to pick you up! I'm tired of picking up all the fucking pieces for you!
"You don't have to do shit! You choose to!"
"Yea because unlike all the boys you fuck I'm the only one who gives a fuck about you! But fine I'm done picking up all the pieces for your shitty ass life! Go back to being a hoe!"
I didn't even realize what I was saying until I heard Queen gasped. A tear ran down her face as she stared me hard in my eyes. That's when she balled her fist up and punched me hard as ever in my face. I held my cheek and looked at her.
"God isn't for everyone and he sure isn't for me! No one will ever love me and it's all God's fault! You think you the shit because you have God well fuck you and God. I'll go back to being a hoe I'm sure your father knows all about it!"
She then stomped off into the rain. I felt like shit. I couldn't believe I just talked so bad about Queen but what really stood out from what she said was about my father. I didn't understand what she meant and to be honest I couldn't deal with Queen anymore. She wanted to leave so I had no choice but to let her go.