Forever and Always (a Katniss and Peeta fanfiction)

Forever and Always

This is my new story about Katniss and Peeta, I'll update it whenever I can and I apologize in advance for any grammar, spelling, glitches or other issues in this story. Feedback about the first chapter would be amazing and thank you for reading!

I wake up from a nightmare. I feel tears flow down my cheeks. I look around my bedroom, pale moonlight seeps through a window. I have two windows in my bedroom, one faces Peeta's house, the other faces the woods. Peeta is still recovering from his hijacking and I'm still recovering from the rebellion and my sister's death. He's getting better everyday but it's slow. We see each other every once in a while, sometimes we even eat dinner together.

I pull my knees up to my chest and put my head in between them and rock back and forth slightly, crying. The sun will rise soon.

I manage to get up and I watch the sun rise from my window. Peeta's favorite color. I watch the sunlight flow into the room. When it's fully risen, I suck in a deep breath of air and turn away. I walk to the other side of the room to get dressed. Greasy Sea will be here soon to make sure I eat. My sixteen-year-old-figure has returned. I can clearly see my ribs, my stomach is never full because I never give myself enough food to be full, even though I have all the food I could possibly want at my feet. I put on a simple black t-shirt and some sweatpants. I braid my filthy hair and state at my reflection. My skin is pale and dirty, my hair is greasy, my arms covered in scars. I find one scar that stands out from all the rest. It's across my cheekbone and rosy pink somehow. It probably won't go away like the rest of them, sadly.

I hear a knock at my bedroom door and then I see Sea's reflection in my mirror. "Good morning" she says. "Morning" I answer softly. My voice is raspy and my throat is dry. "How did you sleep?" she asks concerned. "Not very good, the nightmares just get worse and worse every night" I say. She approaches me and when she's next to me, she watches my reflection. She turns to me and I turn my head to look at her. She lightly runs her thumb across my cheek. "I've watched you grow up and never in all that time have I seen you so depressed and desperate. When I was around your age, my little brother went into the games, he was only twelve" I fight off my tears. Prim was only twelve when she was reaped. "I wanted more than anything to take his place, but I couldn't, I'm a girl. He scored an eight" Peeta's score. "But somehow, he won. We were bathed in riches. He was terrified of the outside and never went outside unless he was forced. He was always in his room. It was sad" I look at her eyes that have tears in them. "Then one day, when he was fourteen, got an awful fever. He died about a month after he got the fever. We were forced out of Victors Village and moved back to the seam. They didn't give us any extra money or food ever again" She has been in the seam for most of her life. "I became like you, hollow figure, depressed, lonely. I longed for a friend or my brother but nobody stepped forward to become my friend in my time of need"

"So you are saying that I need to go talk to Peeta?" "no, I just want you to know that I've been trough something similar" I nod and look at my feet. My eyes linger across the floor and find a dark blue ribbon lying on the floor. I close my eyes and fight my tears. It was her ribbon. It's the one that she wore to the second reaping. I turn and walk to the window facing the woods. I stand there with my hands on the windowsill. "I'll go make some breakfast" she says. I watch the sunlight glitter across the sky.

I stand there until I hear Sea call me downstairs. I walk downstairs and only eat half my breakfast. She left after she was done making it. I put my plate on the floor and call Buttercup. She comes out from her little hiding hole in the corner and eats the food off my plate. I go upstairs and lie down. I look out the window facing Peeta's house. He rolls around in bed, still asleep.

I watch him for a while. I realized how much I miss him. I want him to be there for me when I have a nightmare, I want to be there for him when he has a nightmare. I want him to be here to comfort me when I cry or I'm upset. I wish Prim could be here. Sweet, innocent Prim. Oh I miss her so much. Tears fall down my face.

I'm so upset I don't even notice that Peeta is standing in front of his window, watching me. I jump back a little when I notice him. I quickly dry my tears. I walk to the bathroom, he can't see in there. I sit against the wall for a while. I get up after a while and look through the window again. Peeta sits on the side of his bed staring into nothingness. I go to my bed and get under the covers. Buttercup comes in and jumps onto my bed. I close my eyes and fall asleep.

***
I wake up sweating. I cry into my pillow. I hear the phone ring. I pick up the phone on the nightstand and answer.

Me: Hello?
Peeta: Hi, it's Peeta.
Me: Hi Peeta.
Peeta: Do you want to do something today?
Me: Sure.
Peeta: Okay, what do you want to do?
Me: Um, we could have lunch at my house?
Peeta: Okay, sounds good. Does one o'clock sound good?
Me: Yeah. See you then.
Peeta: See you later. Bye.
Me: Bye.

I hang up and look at the clock. It's 12:15. I go take a shower.

***

I dry my hair and braid it I put on some clothes and start to make lunch. I make some sandwiches. Just as I put them on the table the doorbell rings.

It will be fine. Right?

So how did you like it? like I said, if you could please give me some feedback, that would be great. Thanks again for reading. If you have any questions or anything, feel free to comment or private message me. :)