Stuck In Wonderland

If only

I had made the arrangements, and we were ready to leave. I think I was the most exited for this trip, I'd get to see my good friend again! Alex and Lola stared at me the hole trip up, which was about a day long carriage ride through the forest. I guess at the beginning I was jittery and near the end I got really excited and it felt like I needed to practice my lines. The dress I wore commented my body well and purple and black went well together. It was poofy enough to hide something tho. I went on armed.

Once we got there, and I got out, then helped the twins out. I looked behind me and Damian stood there, blown away. I smiled at him, he started shuddering over his words.

"M-miss. Amanda. I-it's a pleasure to see y-you again." He bowed like he'd never done it before. I giggle.

"The pleasure is all mine. And please, we've known each other long enough. You can drop the formalities." I giggled. He just smiles, takes my hand and kisses it. I blush a little. He looks up and chuckles.

"It looks like I still know how to make you blush." He chuckled, I play hit his arm. He smiled gently. Lola and Alex peeked around my skirt at him. Alex waved happily and came out, but Lola stayed there to shy to even say hi. Damian waved at Alex and looked at Lola. "Who's this lovely lady?" He asked, Lola seemed flattered. She hid behind me.

"This is Lola." I said taking her hand and having her walk out so he could see her, it seemed as if his heart melted right there. "Alex's twin."

"H-hi.." She said shyly, then hid behind me.

"Hello, my name is Damian. I'm one of your mother's old friends. It's nice to meet you." He said gently, with a sweet smile.

We talked a little more, but we realized it was dark quickly and went inside. Once the twins were in a guest room, and we had resorted to less royal clothing. A simple dress for me, and what seemed like the cloths he used to wear when we met after the incident.

"You've been offley quiet when it comes to your husband lately.. did something happen in the last week and a half?..- I-if you don't mind me asking that is...!" He said nervously. Like I'd break him in two if he was impolite about this.

"Oh, uh... I.. uh..." I mumbled quietly as I was trying to think of something to tell him. "Well.. It didn't work out.. he wasn't the person I thought he was, he... he didn't really care for me, or the kids... just money and power.. and fame.. and-.." I caught myself before I could go any further, I looked away from the window we were looking through. Trying to hide the fact that I was actually tearing up. I failed miserably..

"Hey.. it's okay.. you dont have to explain if you don't want to.." His voice covered with worry.

"You deserve to know.. but I think you can guess......" I sounded allot more sad then I thought. But I guess that's how things work..

"Yeah... I can..." He said, he caught me offor guard when he rapped his arms around me, in a warm, comfortable hug. I've missed this so much... I though, as I hugged him back. We sat there like that for a while. Then he broke away just enough to look me in the eyes. Are faces were inches away from each other. ".. A-amanda.. I-.... should be going to bed...." He looked away as if he just lied through his teeth.

"Uh-.... Right.. heh.. don't want anyone to worry.." I faked a smile, and pulled away. "Goodnight, your majesty.." He knew I'd only use formalities for 'goodnight''s and good morning''s. So he didn't take that as a weird thing for me to do.

"Goodnight, my lady.." He said, then walked to his bedroom. Me on the other hand, stayed there and looked over the forest outside the growing kingdom.

My hearts an open book if only you would look...

(Damian's POV)

If only I knew how, I'd make them see the light. If it were up to me this all would turn out right... and if I only could, I'd simply wave my hand and make your dreams come true.. and wouldn't that surprise you if you only knew..! I song to myself in my thoughts. Knowing she couldn't hear me.. If only you knew...

How long I waited for you...