lostmyhead

2am again

Lol I'm back again with these early morning rants sorry not sorry

Anyway

I'm going to die at school this week like literally help me. ITS EXAM WEEK AND I WANT TO CRY. There many exams and I haven't studied at all and im very fucked and I have a assessment task due on Thursday and I haven't even done half of it and there is a lot to fucking do. I HAD 14 BLOODY WEEKS TO DO IT AND I LEAVE IT LAST MINUTE WHY LIKE SERIOUSLY WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THIS

I'm having this weird desire to draw circles fucking circles. Why i don't even know myself. Literally I was sitting on my bed and I just wanted to fill a whole page from my art book with circles.

I've been ditching youth group for sleep. Oops I need my sleep you know like I get up very early and I need my sleep on the weekends

HOLY SHIT I JUST HEARD FIREWORKS WAIT WHAT WHY THE FUCK ARE THEIR FIREWORKS GOING OFF AT 2 IN THE FUCKING MORNING WHAT EVEN. WERE THEY EVEN FIREWORKS IDEK THEY SOUNDED LIKE FIREWORKS THOUGH

and the neighbours dogs are barking why. PLS SHUT UP I JUST WANT PEACE AND QUIET.

And once again I'm hungry. Literally every time I get hungry at some ungodly hour like why the fuck. I don't get hungry on normal hours like why

Both my sisters dyed their hair and oh my lord is it bright. Like seriously it blinds me every time I look at it like holy shit

Omfg those people who are like
"OMG IM SUCH TØP TRASH LIKE MY FAVOURITE SONGS ARE STRESSED OUT AND BLURRYFACE"
"GUYS I LOVE TYLER DUN AND JOSH JOSEPH LIKE YASSSS"
I will cry I swear

I'm obsessing over this song right now
Sweater Weather- The Neighbourhood
Omg it's so good like it's literally been on repeat this whole day

Is it possible to go mad from love bc I think I've gone mad loving you but that's okay bc I love you

I feel so lonely right now help it's also cold and my blanket is not doing any justice. I swear my room is always cold. Actually my whole house is already like cold.

When your parents are like
"You need to go outside more your always in your room your not even living"
But when you ask to go out they're like
"What no why are you going out stay at home"
Like wtf i don't get it

Lmao so I have a bmth poster on my wall and my sister comes in my room and point to the poster and asks
"Is that the Janoskians?"
And I wanted to scream and cry and laugh like omfg IT EVEN SAYS BRING ME GHE HORIZON ON IT BUT SHE STILL ASKED IF IT WAS THE JANOSKIANS

why is everyone so talented like they can sing, can music, is very smart, can art and can sport like why can't I have at least one talent bc literally I have none. I'm not special whatsoever

I'm low key annoyed and my mum bc she's making my pay her $50 if she sees any sort of ink on my body like I don't have $50 I'm sorry but how the fuck am I supposed to pay for that shit and I love to draw on my body and the fact she is making me pay if I do it is actually fucking ridiculous

I'm not even tired why. I kind of want to sleep but like I can't like I'm literally wide awake.

I need to finish decorating my wall but i don't know what to do with it bc I don't know how to decorate for shit

I think I've covered everything I need to rant about. Idek but anyway goodbye guys have a nice day :)))
-jessica xx