lostmyhead

what happens now?

What do we do now? What happens to us?

I want everything to go back to normal just as much as you do but

I   d o n t   k n o w   h o w

I just don't want to lose you. I don't know what ill do if I did but things just can't keep going this way.

It's tearing me apart having to come to school knowing we won't even talk

I just miss you and everything about you. You mean the absolute world to me and I'm not ready to lose you not now, not ever.

And I guess maybe I should try harder but fuck every time I do I just start to break down.

Every time I look at you and every time someone says your name

my heart just breaks even more

I want to come talk to you but every time I try I just start to cry and I don't want you to see me cry.

I just want everything to go back even though everything might not be exactly how it was before I just want you back.

I miss you so fucking much and everyone's been telling me that maybe I have to let go but fuck they don't know

I
c a n' t
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I can't just leave you. You're way to important to me to just drop you know

Fuck I don't even know anymore. I guess I just have to keep trying no matter how many times I fail I just have to keep going, anything to get back to you.

I love you

so

fucking

much

Please don't ever forget that because no matter what happens I will always love you