Let's Get Physical.

You Gotta Forgive Me...

Next Morning

Terrence POV

I woke up the next morning with tarajis pillow stained from my tears, even though it still smelled strongly of her. I got up and lightly moved the kids from on top of me. They had school today, and i was contemplating on wether or not i should let them go today after all that they've seen last night. And plus is don't want them going around and spreading information. I decided that they need a bit of a break. I got up and went to shower. I didn't even really move, just stood there and let the water hit my body. Now I'm obviously a confident man...but I'm weak without my woman here to keep me confident. She's my motivation. I woke up the kids and as soon as they saw me and not taraji they started to cry again, remembering her situation. "I know guys..come on you're not going to school today...we're going to go see taraji. Go shower.." i told them and they got up and took turns going into the shower as i went downstairs to cook breakfast. I'm really hoping that taraji gives me some sort of sign today. Something to tell me that she knows for sure that it's ME that's there. I just hope that my baby doesn't die. I don't want to be by myself with no one to come home to every day. I want someone to wake up next to every morning and that someone is her. She means alot to me and i never thought that i would treat a woman right again. We've been so mean to eachother that we ended up falling in love and that we've been through the same things. We have so much in common and i just can't lose her...i just can't. As i was cutting something i turned the knife around and aimed it right at my heart. I took a deep breath. If taraji can't live then there's no point. I then hear the kids coming downstairs and i quickly repositioned the knife and continued chopping. I can't leave them though. We're the only people who really take care of these kids and leaving them after their aunt leaves is to much. Asia was pouting and sniffing and i picked her up. "Hey...asia i know it hurts...you kids are strong and taraji wants you to stay strong. I love her too and we gotta stay strong..." i told her and she just cried and cried. They were crying so much that they turned red. I hugged them all and got in the car. We drove to the hospital although at red lights i would start to bawl and cry too. Once we got there we ran in and went into her room. Natasha and zuri were there too because zuri called me and told me that they were going. We went into the room and taraji looked exactly the same. Still and stiff. I grabbed her hand and kissed it. I then kneeled down next to her and gave a sad smile. "Goodmorning baby...I'm back. I missed you so much last night and i had to hold on to your pillow so that i could fall asleep.." i said chuckling a little bit but it immediately faded. The grew quieter than it already was. All i heard was the heart moniter, my heart beating drastically, and tarajis steady breathing. I sighed and kissed her hand again. "Baby i know that you're still mad at me...and I'm so sorry and i wish that there was a way they i could make it up to you while you were like this. I love you baby.." i said as the doctor came in. "Goodmorning..." he said to me. "Morning...how is she?" i asked him. "Well of course not eating...she's exactly the same..no improvement or setbacks.." he said and i sighed. "But we do need to ask you some questions..to see the health between her with you...it's just something we do to find out more about the patient and to help with the condition.." he said and i nodded. "Ok.." i said sighing. "Alright let's begin..do you do any activites together? As exercising or running?" he asked me. "We work out together and also run." i told him. "And often do you do this?" he asked me. "Almost everyday...we're both very busy with work so it's pretty much on weekends or days we have off or decide to take off.." i told him. "Ok..good...next question. Any children or planning to have children?" he asked me. "No...the kids in the lobby are my nephews and neices and they call her their aunt. We haven't been planning or talking about any but i don't know how she feels about having any.." i told him. "And what about you?" he asked me. "I...um don't really know...i wouldn't hate it...but I'm not trying to make one...you know what i mean?" i asked me and he nodded. "Well why don't you want any sir?" he asked me. "Well...me and her were bestfriends. And i just feel that having kids would be a bit awkward...between us..but i don't know because we haven't talked about it at all.." i told hima nd he shrugged. "Hm..you seem like you would be good parents even though i haven't heard much from taraji.." he said grinning and i nodded. "Ok..next question...how is your sex life?" he asked and i choked up a bit. "Um..are you sure that it's ok if i discuss this?" i asked confused. "Yes it's perfectly fine. I'm a doctor as much as it seems a bit embarrassing to talk about it's something that we must know about sir. We have to make sure that she isn't secretly pregnant and possibly didn't know." he said and my eyes widened. "Ok. Our sex life is good..." i told him looking away. "Ok..when was the last time you had sex and what is the longest time you've gone without it and how frequently you do it...?" he asked. I shifted in my seat a little and leaned back. "Well...the last time we had sex was the day before yesterday. The longest time we've gone without it was actually yesterday. We usually go 30 minutes without it so...um yeah" i said looking away. "*whistles* man that's something...you two are a little overly active huh?" he said laughing. "Yeah i guess.." i said laughing back. "Alright...last question. Do you know anything about virginity purposes?" he asked me. "Um..well she was virgin...but she lost it to me..why?" i asked him. "Because being a virgin and pregnant doesn't exactly fit together you know..and also if she's pregnant..giving birth would be overly painful because even though the vagina is stretching naturally because the baby is growing, its can cause permanent scarring.." he told me. "Oh.." i said nodding. "Well alright..that's all i have to ask right now. Thank you and later we will do a pregnancy test when she wakes up.." he told me as he headed out. "Ok.." I said nodding as he nodded back and closed the door. I grabbed tarajis hand again and kissed it. I wanted to kiss her lips again but i didn't want her to go into shock. "Baby...please...just give me a sign that you believe me and her me. Please give me a sign that you still love me and forgive me...a sign that you trust me and will marry me...please baby just give me any sign.." i said but once again she didn't do anything. I cried and looked at her still frame. "God...please jesus. I know i don't talk to you often but i really need you right now...I'm so sorry...that now i want to speak to you when i need something..but my lady needs help and i need you to save her lord..please...I've been through so much pain trying to find the woman of my dreams...and now I've found her lord..please don't let her be taken from me..i need her god please..I'm her adam and she's my eve please god let her give me a sign lord...amen." i prayed as i cried. Next thing you know, i feel a light squeeze around my hand. I opened my eyes in shock and saw tarajis hand holding on to mine...i felt her grip. I gasped and jumped up. "Baby you're there! Thank you god! Baby i missed you!" i shouted grabbed her hand again as she squeze it but didn't wake up. Even though she was still laying there motionless, she knew that it was me..well she probably didn't but she could respond. I tangled my fingers with her and she slowly did it back.