Why Did You Hurt Me

chapter 4

Lucas POV
I can't believe she is dating him I knew him from Texas we used to be neighbors before I moved to NYC. He was such a jerk to me and my freinds he once got us into trouble with our parent. He took and put some of his stuff in our backpacks and claimed we stole the junk. We were all grounded for two months and that's is not even the worst of it. One time he convinced my girlfriend that I cheated on her but it was just pictures of me and my last girlfriend. Wait I thought mabey I can show her I have changed I know I picked up my cell and dialed the number of the flower shop down the road from her i orderd her favorite flowers maybe now I can make things right. After all I've done to her as I remember all I did to her but the worst one stood out in my mind.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~flash back~~~~~~~
Lu- ucas pleasse sstopp. I smiled as Riley was on the floor holding her face crying. What you don't like the truth huh I said people were surrounding us you know when you kissed me on that subway I got off and threw up right. Which wasn't true I smiled for three days straight. " w-why aree you d-doing this" she said crying harder. Because you are so dumb i have to keep you in the know of how people like me feel about you. another thing I only went out with you to make other girls want me. " you don't deserve her and she never should have went out with you" said someone I turned and saw farkle. Well well what do we have here a nerd with some courage I sneerd he stood tall and looked me in the eye " another thing stop picking on an innocent girl pick on someone your own size. You have already drained her of her happiness she hasn't slept in a week because of you and me and Maya have been there trying to make her happy again but you know what our old Riley is gone. she hasn't ate anything since two days ago your pushing her to the edge and soon she's gone fall and we may never see her again. So pick on me I don't care any more all I want is Riley back hit me do what you want I don't care just leave her alone I'd rather be bruised and beaten and have my old Riley than to be fine and lose her he said helping her up now if you'll excuse us I've got to take her home and take care of her so by you jerk." What have I done I thought I had no idea I was thinking when my new " freinds" came up to me " good job man soon you'll be as popular and cool as us they all said." I smiled and said yeah completely forgetting about Riley.
~~~~~~~~~~~ end of flash back~~
I shuddered at the memory I hated my self ever sense then. Why did I choose popularity over my friends I lost all of them the all hated me I even hit Maya a couple of times but farkle and Riley I just kept hurting them till the were pushed over the edge by that I mean Riley went goth till college and farkle just stopped caring about everything except Maya and Riley I didn't even know what happened to him. I was such a terrible Freund I'm the one who deserved that why did I hurt her why I said out loud as my eyes started to tear up. I always do when I think about it and ever sense i got out of high school I have tried to make it right by helping others. I volunteer and donate but I still feel bad about what i did to her and farkle. I just spent the rest of the day thinking about what I did I really am a horrible person.