Renegades

Chapter 17

Aquila's P.O.V.

This can NOT be happening. Nobody can get attached to me. He's going to get killed by the Renegades sooner or later, I cannot let him be fond of me. I killed his mother.

'I killed his mother', this thought hit me like a shitload of bricks.

I stared at him with disbelief as panic started to rise, my eyes desperately trying to find an exit.

"Aly, are you okay?" Jax asked me as I snapped out of my panicky daze. His voice was deep and smooth, coated with worry as he looked at me with confused eyes.

I stood on my spot, shocked. Shocked because of the fact that I was feeling this way. I am Agent 01, the best assassin the Renegades could ever have. Agent 01 doesn't let her petty feelings get in the way of her missions. Jax is making me feel a way that I, as Agent 01, have never felt in such a long time.

My face hardened as rage started to fill up inside me. I was angry. Not angry at Jax, obviously. But angry over the fact that I had let someone fuck up my feelings while I'm on my mission.I walked around the clearing, trying to find a way out. I need to get away from Jax, I need to be as far away as possible. He cannot get too close to me, I can't let it.

                  

"Aly, where are you going?", confusion evident in his voice.

"I can't. I just. I can't do this." I said exasperated.

"You can't do this?" he asked, "You can't spend some time with me?" he continued, his voice sounded sad but he quickly covered it up with a blank expression.

"No, Jax, that's not what I meant. It's just that I am a- nevermind" I was quick to cover up my almost slip up. 'Shit! I almost blew my cover'. I mentally slapped myself, 'God, why am I so stupid?'

What is Jax doing to me? I almost told him that I brutally murdered his Mom. I am such an idiot!

'Yeah, an idiot for Jax' my stupid subconscious argued.

"Then what do you actually mean?" he asked, a glimmer of hope in his eyes but his expression still remained passive.

"It's nothing" I said, trying to make it sound like it IS actually nothing. "Okay, sooo what are we doing here?" I replied casually.

"As I've said earlier, I wanted to clear my mind from all of this drama and yeah, since you're only person with me earlier, I decided to bring you here to kind of just talk." Jax explain, his stoic expression was gone, replaced by a tired look. "I just want cool off you know? Spend some time with my housemate, and may I add, my crush, which happens to be you." he continued.

'Gosh, he's such a cutie.'

My legs started moving on its on and I found myself walking towards him and sitting down on the area next to him. I laid on my back as I stared at the sky, putting my arms behind my head as I relaxed. "You miss her, don't you?" the question slipped from my thoughts and into my mouth.

As soon as those words left my lips, I immediately regretted it. I looked over to see Jax staring at a distance, a look of guilt and sadness swarming in his eyes.

"Yeah, I do." was his short reply. "It's just that, she wouldn't have went missing if I'd just look after her more" he looked down on his hands as he let out a long sigh. Jax then slowly lied down on the grassy area.

"Jax, stop beating yourself up. It wasn't your fault, I swear." I reassured him as I stared at his face. He looked at me and our gaze then met. His heated stare made my heart rate spike up.

"But Aly, if I didn't allow her to go to that get together with her friends, she'd still be here with me, with us. And also, she's your friend, I feel so. If it wasn't for my stupid actions, she'd still be here tal-"

"No Jax, stop it." I said deadpanned. "As your Dad said, it might be the Renegades-" chuckling mentally, I kept a straight face as I talked to him, "-it might not, but whatever happens, it wasn't your fault." I added.

He opened his mouth to probably counter with me and be a Debbie Downer but before the words can leave his mouth,  I gave him a straight look and said "Jax, just stop, okay? I thought you came here to clear your mind yet here you are, putting yourself down."

He stared at me unresponsively, probably letting my words sink in, "Yeah, you're right. Let's just forget it" Jax said before he flashed me a breathtaking grin.

'Oh God, he would be the death of me someday' I thought. '-but he can't be with me. I am a part of the Renegades, I'm a spy. I am only here for the mission, I CANNOT let myself get attached.'

I finally snapped back to reality when I felt Jax move beside me. My eyes trained against him as I slowly sat up.

He then stood up, his long, muscular legs making its way towards the creak in the clearing. I followed him, confused.

Jax sat down by the edge of the creak, I approached him silently, pondering what move I should do next. I decided to just say 'Fuck it' and copy his actions, sitting down next to him but leaving a few inches of space between us.

                  

"So Aly, since we only have known each other for a few days, what if we play 20 questions or something just so I can get to know you." he said, "I mean, you could be a serial killer or spy" his laugh vibrated around us.

My breath got caught up in my throat as he said the word 'spy' but Jax didn't seem to notice it so I tried to act interested in his game.

"Well, okay then." I said coyly.

Jax grinned at me and I found myself staring at him, his smile seemed to brighten up the whole clearing. "OKAY!" he said excitedly, "First question, do you have any siblings?" he asked. His excitement rolling off of him in waves.

I laughed at his giddiness, "Nah, I don't. But I do want to have a little brother".

A/N: Okay guys, I literally just found out that the story wasn't updated and shit and this is where it last ended. But guys, I swear, this has like 1.5k words but it all got deleted. I want to be mad at wattpad but eh, I guess mistakes happen. So guys, I guess this will be it for now. I swear, I'll try to get my last chapter back or I'll just re-write it.

Thanks guys for the support and patience and yeah, I'll see you soon