Off The Edge

Chapter 1: Shit Storm

Have a taste of this amazing book, in theory there will be a new chapter every TWO weeks. I know, I know. Very slow posting, but I'm still working on this.

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"How could you! We've been together for years! You knew I would find out! What does he have that I don't?!" She's pissed and was yelling, of course, wouldn't you? Having your boyfriend of Four years, almost five, cheat on you with his best friend, it kinda sucks right? Well yeah, that's what she's yelling about. I was going to tell her, it only happened two nights ago but work got in the way. Then she found out, how I have no idea. But wait you have no idea who I am, do you?

Well, I'm Leo and currently my relationship with my girlfriend hasn't been going the way it has since freshman year. Just two nights ago I cheated on her with my best friend Josh. I know shitty right; I'm a horrible person I get it. Oh shit, she's still waiting for my answer.

"I did it, I slept with him, I have no excuse I may have been drunk, but that still doesn't excuse the fact. I know you hate me I know you don't want to see me again, I'm sorry. And I was going to tell you... "I flinched when I saw her hand come up. It stung, but the tears weren't welling up in my eyes, but they did in hers. My stomach dropped.

"Go. Leave." I nodded and grasped my already packed bags. I walked out of the door and she slammed it behind me. That's when I finally cried for the first time since that night. She just knew that I slept with Josh, but not what we were doing before then... Everything that's gone wrong is entirely my fault, even the fact that I was crying that night and Josh thought it was a good idea to put a drink in front of me. Amanda and I's anniversary is in three weeks. Five years that I threw down the drain just because we were having a rough patch. People change and they lie, but what I did, I'm surprised that all she did was slap me. My mind wonders to last time we had a big fight that day, two nights ago. I freaked out; she wasn't home until late the night before. I told her if she didn't love me anymore then just tell me, but I guess I was the one who fell out of love. I took in a deep breath and whipped my tears.

Our neighbor walked out of her room. Great, she saw me and now she's sitting down, "Another fight?"

"Yeah." I managed to get out before bursting into another round of sobs. God, I'm such a baby I have no reason to cry.

"Break up again?" She looked at me with concerned eyes.

"I cheated." I breathed, and then she sighed and got up. She's not happy with me, why would she be, she's talking to her best friends cheating boyfriend.

"You should get to whoever it was and break ties, that's if you still love her. And it'd probably be best if you do it sober so no drinking okay." She fixed her shirt and looked down at me. "And do it now."

I nodded and looked at my bags, I stood up and grabbed them. "Thank you, Joy. And if I come back and it's for real over I'm so going to get drunk." Joy looked at me with a sad smile as I walked away.

I heard her knock on the door and sigh, I made it halfway down the stairs before I hear Amanda yell, "He's such an ass!"

I am I'm just that I didn't deserve anything that she had given me. I had no intention of hurting her like this, it kind of reminded me of freshmen year, we broke up after a few weeks because I thought I didn't feel anything and then I felt so much for her. I fought for her so hard and I just threw all that away, all those nights talking to her from my room begging her to give me one last chance. I got to my car and tossed my bags into the back.

Even if it was really over I could still see her because she gave me two bags and that's nowhere near close to all my things.

Shaking my head I turn on the car and pull away from our apartment building, well I guess I should say her apartment building... God, I really hoped all this wasn't really over, but why would she still want to be with me? I really fucked up.

I watch the cars pass by me and turn up the stereo as loud as it could go. I really needed a drink, but Joy said sober.

I finally came to a stop in front of my best friend's house, or ex best friend. I looked at the house that Amanda and I have been to many times, where I lost my fucking life to alcohol, and where I realized I wanted to marry Amanda. A month ago I realized that, I was going to stop drinking first so I could start saving up money for the nicest ring that I couldn't afford but she deserved.

I banged my head against the stirring wheel and rested it there for a few minutes. I sighed; feeling enraged for no reason other than to add to the list of my problems. This was all my fault, I knew it I needed to fix this for myself and get over it. I opened the car door slowly and walked away from the car, still running; I beat on his door and waited impatiently. If he doesn't answer this damn door in the next 15 seconds I'm going to throw a rock through his window.

Just as I finished that thought he opens the door, my best friend, my lover? No, I hate him. I don't want any relations with him anymore. He's more like my ex best friend.

"We need to talk Josh, and you really don't have a choice about this." The words came rushing out of my mouth and sounded harsher than what I meant them to be, but still I pushed past him and walked into his living room. He ran his fingers through his relatively short hair and looked at me.

"What is it this time, dude, I'm tired I just got up and I have work in like, 2 hours." I shot him a glance and he looked at me and knew it wasn't good.

"She found out," He blew out a breath and sat down," and we need to talk about what happened we've been avoiding it since that night and we both know that. There's nothing to talk about man, it was a mistake and we both knew it the moment we finished. Or at least the regret was written all over your face once you sobered up." He said this in a calm tone and at this point I wanted to punch him in the nose.

"You fucking got me drunk and you knew exactly what you were doing! You did it on purpose and I fucking know it." My voice hurt from screaming that. My voice would be hoarse tomorrow if I continued to yell like I just did, but at this moment, it felt good. I hardly raised my voice anymore and I felt a new feeling creep up my spine.

"You knew I had a girlfriend and that I loved her. You knew that alcohol is my weakness, I can't help but get drunk. And you knew that my sobriety relied on me and her getting married." I shouted and he looked at me.

"You need to figure out what's going on between you and her, you shouldn't be here and we both know it." He didn't raise his voice but I could tell he was pissed.

"Get out of my house Leo. You need to go back to your girlfriend and think about what you just said okay asshole?" That was it he left the room, and I fucking stormed out of the house making sure to slam his door hard enough that it wouldn't close. God, he had gone too far, but so did I.

I got to my car and slammed my door shut and looked up the closest bar around. But then I got a text, 'Before you do anything stupid give me your keys.' It was from Joy, of course, she didn't want me to go and get drunk, and she knew I would do it. Granted I did tell her that if shit didn't go the way I wanted it to then that's what I was going to do. I sent her a text basically telling her to get ready for a shit storm because instead of going to a bar I was going back to Amanda. I pulled away from Josh's house quickly and counted down the minutes back to my place, I'll do this sober give Joy my keys and then probably end up at a bar.