Off The Edge

Chapter 2: Strangers

I had gotten to the apartment door, knocked and been told to 'go the fuck away', and slid my keys under Joy's door by the time I hear the familiar voice say, "I just can't get over it! But I love him I don't know what to do."

I heard Joy's voice but couldn't tell what she was saying. They were talking about me and it wasn't good, I could hear things being thrown. The apartment is probably a complete mess, liquor bottles smashed, candles on the floor, our pictures torn to pieces.

"Amanda, please let me in and talk to you please." I, hopefully, said it loud enough to where she heard me. I lightly knocked on the door, and then I heard footsteps. Guess who opened the damn door, non-other than Joy. JOY! Heh jokes...

"She's in the bedroom, keys now." She held her hand out and I shook my head.

"Under your door, where are you going to put them, so I don't have to wake you up?" She looked at me as I spoke. She shook her head at me and motioned for me to get out of the way, so I stepped to the side. Once she was passed me I walked into the apartment and to the bedroom. It was a mess, my clothing, and other valuables tossed a crossed the floor. The bed was turned over and Amanda was leaning on the desk crying. My heart stopped, I hated myself, I hate what I've done, I hate this situation that I have brought us both into. She doesn't deserve feeling like this; she doesn't deserve to have a cheating boyfriend. She deserves so much more than what I can give her.

"Amanda, I think it's time we break up, for real this time. I've lost your trust; I've lost your respect. I don't deserve you, I never did. Find someone who can hold you, and love you fully. Forget about me, please." I moved to leave but stopped when her voice caressed my ears for the last time.

"I'll always love you, Leo." I walked away, something I should have done years ago. I should've given her a better chance at life. I shouldn't have put her through all this; I loved her, but I keep hurting her. I looked at her one last time and walked out of the apartment. I send a text to Joy asking her to help Amanda pack the rest of my stuff and put it in my car.

I walked out of the building and the tears came, I couldn't stop them this time. I fell to my knees and sobbed there on the pavement, hoping for a car to turn the corner and hit me. I stayed there for God knows how long. I took a deep breath in; I was numb, but not numb enough. I looked up a bar I could walk to from here and made my way towards it. I lost myself that night; I'm letting Josh and alcohol take the blame for my mistakes. I had to forget for few hours; luckily the bar was coming into sight. I walked into the bar and told them to give me the strongest stuff they had.

By the time he came up to me I've had at least 7 shots and was getting drunk. He sat next to me and looked at me and laughed before he looked forward and asked the bartender for whatever I was having.

"I'm Jay and it seems your having a tough night, cutie." He looked at me as he took, what I assumed was his first drink that night.

"What's it to ya? And don't call me cutie." I looked at him finally, and it might be the alcohol talking but damn was he hot.

"Just wanted to know what a cute stranger like you doing in a gay bar." I snapped my eyes up and looked around me, well that would explain why he actually came up to me.

"Ain't really your business now is it, Jayy." I held onto the 'Y' for no reason, but it seemed to make him at least smile, and holy shit. It has to be the alcohol, but damn I wanted to be in his bed now.

"I guess it isn't, but I gotta ask. What's your name?" He took another shot and licked his lips, very distracting may I add, before his eyes returned to my direction such pretty eyes.

"Names Leo. And you pretty boy better be trying to get me in your bed, cause it's totally unfair if you aren't." I downed my eighth drink and leaned forward to connect my lips to his. Well, that was unsuccessful because I fell onto the floor and now was trying to get back up, but my drunken legs wouldn't really help. He giggled and got off of his chair and held out his hand. He pulled me up and pulled me close, our breath intermingling.

"Kiss m-" He cut me off with his lips to mine, I felt fire rip across my skin and I pulled him closer. He was an amazing kisser. He finally pulled away and I took a deep breath in.

"I was hoping to offer you an invitation to my bedroom tonight. Please accept it." He was so attractive he had me when he walked through the door; well I guess when he smiled really. I nodded my head, and he placed some bills on the counter and told the bartender to put the rest of the charge on his tap, and then he led me out of the bar.

He took us outside to a car and pushed me up against it and kissed me once again, I felt that fire spread across my skin and whimpered. I needed him, now and he was making it hard not to pull him into the back of that car and have my way with him then and there. I pushed him off of me and smiled at him.

"The invitation was to your bedroom." I was breathless and my chest was shaking. I really wouldn't mind just doing it in his car.

He laughed and opened the door for me and after I got in, he proceeded to close it. He went over to the diver's side and got in. We got to his house pretty fast, and it was big, but that's not what my mind was on. We got out of the car, and as we were walking up to the house he grabbed my hand and spun me around to face him and kissed me deeply before he bit onto my neck, making my knees go weak.

------------------------------------------------The Next Morning---------------------------------------------------------

I woke up and the first thing I felt was pain all across my body, the second was arms around my waist, the third was something hard and pole like touching my ass. My eyes widen and I cursed under my breath, I don't remember much after we got into the house, but I could feel the hickeys. We must have had tons of fun last night then, and his friend seems like it was ready for another round.

I had no idea if I should wake him up, or just leave, but with the way he was holding me it made it pretty hard to move and not wake him up. Please tell me I at least remember his name, it starts with a 'J', Jacob? No, Jamie? No, Jay! Thank God I at least remember that.

Oh fuck I think he's waking up, his grip on my body got tighter and he buried his face into my neck. What? Oh no, he's kissing the hickeys. Not good for my own friend.

"Good morning." He said in a groggy voice, if it wasn't obvious by now, he's awake. Do I respond, do I not, was this a one night stand? Was it not, questions I need answers to now.

"Morning," I answered and turned in his arms to face him, and it felt like I got hit in the chest, I vaguely remember his image from last night, but what I remembered was a lie. He was smoking hot, and I was staring right into his eyes. His beautiful blue-grey eyes and his very kissable lips.

"Do you want to go out for breakfast beautiful man." He said and smiled at me, so not one-night stand? This is all really weird. I was hungry, and I have no idea if I'd be able to get through breakfast alone, not after years of waking up and grab a bowl of cereal with someone else. I subconsciously shake my head and leaned in and lightly kissed Jay's lips.

"Breakfast sounds amazing, but just so you know you're just as attractive." He smiled and let go of my waist, and he's standing up now, where the hell are our clothes? But holy shit forget about clothing, he was, as I've said before, smoking. He wasn't very muscular, but he was skinny and he definitely knew how to work with what he has. I rolled onto my back and smiled to myself, well it seems like I probably should get some clothes on as well. I stood up and watch him for a minute before I found my clothing and threw it all on.

"You like what you see, Leo?" He was behind me when he said that and I jumped, he placed his hands on my hips and chuckled to himself. "Let's go eat, cutie." After he said that he lightly kissed my neck and walked out the door. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and rolled my shoulders. Now this was going to be interesting.