I go back inside the house and explain to my mom that I'm not hungry and that I rather go ahead and get in the shower. I shower off and fill the bathtub and decide to take a soak.
Right now if Maddie wasn't there I would of killed myself....
Right now I would of been dead away from the hate of true world...
Right now I wouldn't feel the pain of watching Maddie walk out that door to be win someone else...
But, why do I care???!
Why???!
Maddie is just another friend, a special friend...
A friend with many admires..
But, maybe I'm just a friend to her..
She is more then that to me, she is the reason I live grouch the day and the pain just to watch her go and...
Why is his bothering me so much?!?!
I know I could make it all stop!
I look over to the blade and grab it. This time nobody can stop me. By the time my mom finds out it will be to late, Kenzie will probably find out first and when she hears she will tell her Mom and when Maddie comes home from her date Maddie will find out.
Will she care?!
Was it all just an act???
I don't know!
I take the blade cove the off and do a narrow cut near the top of my hand to make sure I can bare it...
I watch the blood fill in to the blue water, that slowly gets tinted red. I go to cut the vane and then I stop....
I imagine Maddie's blue eyes crying and I just can't do it... I get a towel and clean up the blood and put my blade away
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Suicidal : Maddie Ziegler and Jojo Siwa fanfic
FanfictionJojo often feels alone on the team... Since Bryn came and Maddie left. Jojo decides one day she can't take it anymore will Maddie be able to stop Jojo?!? If she can what will it mean for her and Jojo?
