Sweater Weather.{Troye Sivan Fanfic}

Chapter 4

Once upon a time, i 'hated' Troye and was being dragged to his house by my cousin Eleanor Del Savi.

Wait. That's actually now happening.

My emotions, all of this suspense i can't handle it all! My heart is beating so fast, I'm sure its about to explode. My mind is going through a million thoughts right now. Blood is rushing throughout me so fast, Im becoming light-headed.

The more Eleanor drove, the more i felt like passing out. I was clutching the car seat so hard,my fingers are most likely going to snap any moment. Im pretty sure Eleanor saw me sweating and heard me breathing heavier then usual.

'Are you okay Savanna? You're turning green a bit, do you feel sick? We could u-turn back to the doctors..' She suggested. That would be great, but i also want to see Troye.

'Its fine. I guess just the thought of going to his house, is putting me on edge right now' I replied with a shaky voice.'

'Whatever you say.' She told me, as she focus on driving again.

Its only what? 6:36 PM in California but it was still a beautiful day out. Could it be we were at the beach an hour ago? That Eleanor had bailed me out a few hours ago?

A question then popped into my mind. 'El. How did you get the money to bail me out?' She shuffled in her seat.

'Um. You see, being in a gang.. Or well when you're in a gang you get money... Like stealing, or drugs.. You get my drift.' She was uneasy. I would be too, i dropped the topic.

My thoughts when back to Troye and his family. Ha ha.. In a few moments i would probably be there. Standing in front doorsteps.... Finding a way to lie me and Eleanor to live with them.

Not good. Not amazing. Its horrible. Terrible. Horrendous.

Jesus Christ. Savanna pick yourself up. You set your own self up for this didn't you? That's actually true, but Troye also did play a part in this, my whole life and decisions had lead me up to this moment.

I looked at the mirror part of the car. My eyes, were icy cold blue. The color they would usually turn, when I'm frighten, and at the moment and situation I'm most definitely frighten.

This isn't fine. No one understand my pain right now. My eyes, for Christ' Sake's reminds me of him. We practically have the same eye color, my stomach is churning at this thought.

There's a difference. His are more innocent. Mine hold stories, and horrible memories behind them. His memories are nowhere as bad as mine. I wish i could unseen many of the events i had witness.. So much blood...

'Sav. Where here.' Yup. I am on the verge of dying here and now. In Eleanor's car. I wouldn't mind exactly. She would though. Probably think she killed me somehow.

'Um, Savanna... You getting out anytime now?' She is getting impatient now. I shouldn't wait here in her car, but it feels so right too. So does seeing Troye again.

I open the door, step out and close the car's door. Walking to her side, i suddenly feel sick to my stomach. She grabs my wrist and forces me to walk to the door. As she rings the doorbell, i am holding onto the brick wall of their house.

The door opens, in front of us. I see the figure of Troye's mother. No. Seeing her face and eyes... I am going to cry any moment now.

My emotions are messing with me at the moment if you haven't exactly noticed.

'Eleanor hi! Darling how are you?' Mrs. Sivan asks El in the sweetest tone ever. Yup i feel like crap right now, i don't deserve to be living in their house if she agrees to our lie.