Poems

What Once was a Rainbow

I used to be a rainbow,
I wanted people to be happy,
I loved seeing people smile,
I wanted all eyes on me.

But then my sunshine was taken,
I was left a dark cloud,
Left with claps of thunder and rain,
And people were no longer proud.

I pushed people away,
No one could stand in my rain,
It killed me to ruin someone's day,
To give them my pain.

I tried to hide,
Tried to find the sun,
To make me what I once was,
To bring back the fun.

But things can't be the same,
They told me I was forever altered,
Never to be myself again,
My confidence always faltered.

I found myself to be useless,
The world had enough rain,
So I went to a dark place,
Travelling down a forbidden lane.

It was hard to stop myself,
And I barely did,
As I still walk the lane,
With the feelings I hid.

Sometimes I imagined a friend,
Someone to share with,
But it never lasted,
I always seemed to ruin it.

Nothing I did was enough,
And what was forbidden called to me,
I gave up on trying to be okay,
I strived now to be free.

So I attempted to gain freedom,
But I failed try one and try two.
And when I went for try three,
I only found myself more blue.

There was no way to win,
Life is a game I don't want to play,
But I was stuck here,
Rolling the dice for another day.

But the deck was stacked,
And I began to lose,
Everything I loved,
It all started to leave too.

I was told it would be okay,
But I felt alone,
I didn't want to see another,
Nor speak with them on the phone.

The damage I did was enough,
Flooding the areas around me,
Causing others to run,
Feeling as sad as could be.

But it didn't matter,
The people around me just stared,
Because I'm just a dark cloud,
A dark cloud that is scared.