Unexpected || c.r.

chapter nineteen

Izzys pov

hearing those words just made my heart shatter. we need to talk. that could mean multiple things. it could be good and it could be bad. I'm hoping it's good and everything will be alright in the world.

"what do we need to talk about?" I ask and bite my lip.

he sighs "you know how I tried to talk to you about that dream I had earlier" he starts and I nod. "well since I was still kind of tired I was gonna try to go to bed early. but right when I closed my eyes and started drifting off to sleep that dream came back. it was still with you and I couldn't help you" he explains. I feel my mouth go dry. I don't want him to be feeling like this because of me. 

"Chandler I feel like this is my fault" I say quietly.

"no baby it's not your fault. I'm just paranoid" he says trying to calm me down.

"I'm sorry" I sigh.

"don't apologize. you didn't do anything" he says sternly.

"I caused this. I caused you to be paranoid. I don't want you to lose sleep because of me"

"I'm worried because I care about you! I don't want you to get hurt and this is no where near your fault!" he raises his voice. I'm taken back a bit and he notices. "I'm sorry for raising my voice but this is something I have to work with on my own. this is not your fault and all you can do is just calm me down when needed. ok?"

"but I-"

"ok?" he cuts me off.

I sigh and nod "ok"

"good. remember my problem. not yours"

"got it. your problem. not mine" I repeat and sigh. I don't like this. he's losing sleep and it's my fault. I need to do something about it. God I just want to hug him right now. I feel so bad for him and i don't even know why. I mean I know why but I don't at the same time. I'm such a confusing person.

"Isabella!" he yells and I snap out of my thoughts.

"huh? what?" I ask.

"I've called your name like three times already. everything ok?" he asks sympathetically.

I nod "I'm just tired. I'm gonna go to bed. text me if you need anything no matter the time. I'll see you tomorrow" I say and force a small smile.

"will do. goodnight baby girl" he winks and blows me a kiss through the screen. I smile a little more and then hang up.
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the next morning I was exauhsted. I couldn't sleep last night but on the plus side it's Wednesday. Chan gets his cast off tomorrow and it's so close to Friday. then it's the weekend and Chandler and I can spend the night over each other's houses. I roll out of bed and go to my dresser. I put on one of Chandlers tshirts that he left here and a pair of leggings. I put on high tops and leave my hair naturally down. I'm too tired to try. I finish everything else I need to do and realize I'm running late. I sprint downstairs say hi and bye to my mom and grab a granola bar. I get my book bag and run out the door. when I get to school I see Chandler is waiting by my locker with Allie and Luke.

"morning guys" I say and open my locker. I feel Chandler hug me from behind and he kisses my cheek.

"morning Chan" I smile.

"morning beautiful. nice shirt" he says and tickles my side a little bit. I jump and nudge him off of me.

"thanks and don't ever tickle me. ever." I warn and shut my locker. he chuckles and puts his arm around me.