Our Girl

5

We walked in the house with all my bags. I begged Luke not to buy me all this stuff, but he insisted. I would be lying if I said I wasn't stalking, and even Luke knew it too. I'm going to have to tell him why I'm like 'this'. It's a dread thing for me to do. It just brings up so many bad memories.

" Autumn why don't we drop this stuff off in the pleasure room, and then go to mine to talk."

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We were face to face sitting on the bed. Luke was sitting again the frame with his legs spread so I was crisis cross inside them. I looked at the night stand and began to talk.

"I was 14 when I had my first dominate. His name was Stephen. I cared for him he cared me. Everything was fine until I was fifteen. He's started to get angrier, and more push towards sexual stuff. I never wanted to disappoint him, so... I had let him take my virginity away. I wasn't ready at all. He-he just-," I paused to collect my thought and not cry.

I successfully gathered my thoughts as for my tears they came rolling in. Luke just sat there patiently waiting for me to continue while rubbed my knee. I took a deep breath and continued.

" He raped me basically. I didn't want it. I told him and proceeded. Afterwards he left my house. He made me feel like a toy. Even worse was when after that night he got even more strict. I was never aloud to talk, if I did I was punished. Sometime he was have his friends do what they please to me other time he would hit me, or even have his friends watch as he punishes me or torture me. It wouldn't matter how many time I had colored, he would keep going. The only time I was to look at him was apologizing. Which he made me do for almost everything. He would say that everything is my fault, and it wasn't."

By then I was a sobbing mess. Luke cradled me whispering sweet nothings, and I kept saying sorry. The only thing I'm good at doing.

"Shh. Kitten it's okay. He's not here. You have us now. If you want to ever talk again please come to us as much as it hurts to see you cry." I nod so shaken up. My eyes droop as my breath evens.

"Why don't you take a nap. I'll be here or one of the other boys will be here when u wake up. Okay?"

I didn't answer because I was already half asleep. He gave me a kiss pulled the covers over us and spooned me.

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I woke up to an empty bed and frowned. He said he would be here or someone else would. But soon to my dismay the door opened and in came Luke. He saw I was awake and came over to me kneeling in front of me while I was still laying down.

"You alright baby,"

"Yes Sir. Can we stay up here?"

"No actually we can't."

"Okay," I say but comes out muffled because I yawned.

"Does someone need the tickle monster to wake up," Luke smirked, but I on the other hand jump out of bed.

"Meet you down there Sir."

Everyone was done in the game room since it was quite on the first level. I raced down stairs and saw Daddy Ash there. He was the only one I advent bonded with, so I took the brave step and walked over sitting on his lap.

"Woah, hi kitten how was your nap," he said wrapping his arms around me.

"It was great Daddy thanks for asking," I said kissing his cheek. It was so close to his lips, letting him no I'm okay with everything.

We talked and ate pizza for the rest of the day. Michael turned on a movie, I think it was called Shark Tails. Never seen it before but it was good from what I saw. In the middle I got distracted by Ashton sucking a brand new hickey on my neck. From that kiss we started to make out. Luke and Michael were to busy watching the movie to realize, but Calum kept look at us. It was starting make me uncomfortable, but I had to remember these people aren't going to hurt me. I shrugged it off and continued to kiss Ashton.

His lips were complete opposites from Luke and Calum. Ash's were so gentle almost as if any pressure would break instantly me. He made feel all warm and safe inside. I pulled back and we leaned our heads together. Ashton kissed my nose which made me smile. I gave him a hug and went back to watching the movie. We were at the part where he fakes the fight between Lennie and him.

I played with his hair while he rubbed my side for the rest of the movie. Michael and Ashton left after the movie while me, Luke, and Calum stayed to talk for a little longer. They started to play Fifa and I just watched them getting competitive. It's was quite funny actually, but then we all got tired so we headed upstairs. I told Luke I would go with Calum again, so I went to his room. Before I could even enter the room I was being picked up and slammed against the wall. Harsh lips attack me.

"You like be a slut over there with Ashton huh? Who else did you kiss?"

"Luke, daddy. I don't like being a slut with them daddy."

His action were becoming aggressive with every minute. I wasn't liking at all. It reminded me of Stephen would treat me when he was starting to get abusive.

"See how hard you make daddy," he grabbed my hand and forced it down there. I haven't done anything for 3 years now, and Calum is springing on me just like he did.

"Calum stop."

He dropped me.

"What the fuck did you just call me," he sneered.

"I'm sorry Daddy please don't hurt me," I flinched.

The intensity in the room seem to fade, but what he said contradicted.

"Get out. Go find someone else to sleep with, and it better not be the pleasure or you will be in trouble."

With that he pushed me out the room. I let silent tear flow as I walked to Luke's room knowing he should be up, but when I got there I could here snores already. I could here Michaels from here so I went back Ashton's door even though I know he's asleep too.

Soft moans can be heard from Calum's room. I cried harder. I thought I could trust him, but I thought not. I let darkness take over and fell asleep on the floor, hoping the next day will better.