Our Girl

I need your help?!

First WE HAVE ALOMST 1MILLION READS thank you so much.

But I've come to realize that I was getting really mad at the update please over and over. It wasn't till now I realize everyone was on break and I literally got out two days ago.

I do read all comments and appreciate all of them.

But back to what this is about.

My mind has really clouded for some time. No I'm not depressed; no one died.

It's actually a guy. I know so cliche. This time it's really different. Let me explain...

I had this crush in eighth grade. My password is still to this day his first letter of his name. Mostly cuz I'm too lazy to change or forget the new one. But anyway I thought I really liked him, it eventually faded. So my freshman year I didn't really have someone I liked. I sorta forced my to try, so I tried to like that guy again. It just didn't feel right.

So fast forward to sophomore year which is now but summer into sophomore year. I'm in band as you know. I had a lot of senior friends and they were all gone, so I became friends with other people. I'm supper happy with my friend group minus the drama. I'm not sure how I really met him, but we instantly clicked as friends. I developed a crush really fast.

He consumed my thoughts all the time. Before band we would spend time together one on one. I was there when some thing's were happening with him. We would have these small moments and it would rack my brain if he liked me, so I told him and I was rejected. But his time it was around Halloween. I wasn't heartbroken because the way he rejected made laugh hysterically. Which that's made think when I was rejected by a girl I was really hurt. I even cried.

We remained friends he kept his distance for a couple days but then it was like nothing happened. I still liked him after so i knew like that was gonna take time. Until one day he freaked out push me against the lockers.

That was like the last straw type thing. I didn't want to be part of relationship with him if he was going to do that. My other friends agreed. So now it current day now. I really thought I was over him, but his mood affects me. I can sense something instantly is wrong with him when walks into the room.

Now it's happening all again where all I think is of him. I don't want it to stop, but I don't want to obsess. I can't avoid him; his locker is above me, and we have lunch together. I have even had a dream where the person was him but not his body. Like it was symbol for him.

What do I do? Do I say something?

I'll try to get an update for Christmas.