Chapter fourty-one

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I look in the mirror and I see my stomach.

It sickens me

I don't know what Lauren sees in me.

Lauren knocks on the door.

Lauren has been staying with us lately. Completely abandoning her home just for me.

To help me and help take care.

I don't like it because she can hint my pain.

She knows every inch of me.

I hate it but I love it.

"Mercy" her raspy voice comes through the door
"Yes?" I choke out not even realizing the hot tears that have fallen
"Open the door please" she says

I give into opening the door.

She hugs me.

I break in her arms

"Why?" I choke out in between sobs
"Why what babe?" She asks softly
"Why do I look like this?" I say
"You look beautiful to me" she says making me look her in the eye
"I just wish you saw yourself the way I see you. You don't know how much it hurts to know you don't think of yourself the same. You're so god damn beautiful Merc. It hurts to know you think you have to be perfect. You are. You are everything to me. You are my soul mate. Nothing will ever make me stop loving you. Even Ana" she says

Ana as in anorexia

It has gotten worse the past week

Nothing enters my mouth

I'm slowly becoming weak

"I-I" I stutter not knowing what to say
"I love you" she says
"I love you too" I breath out

I lean in and make a connection with our lips

It's passionate
We part lips

"Please eat baby" Lauren says
"What's the point" I shrug
"Mercy please" Lauren looks me in the eyes
"Just stop caring" I say
"You know I can't fucking do that" Lauren says
"Please" I say
"No" Lauren says

Then everything goes black

||Lauren's POV||

Mercy passes out.

Her eyes roll in the back of her head and she starts violently shaking

"Help!" I scream

I'm not letting the tears escape the panic is evident in my voice

Ally and Stevie come running.

"Call an ambulance!" I yell

They nod calling it

No pulse

"There's no pulse!" I yell

Panicking I don't know what to do

I try to find a pulse and I don't break

I can't.

I give her mouth to mouth and press on her chest because her life depends on me.

Me.

Lauren Jauregui.

"Please stay alive" I cry

I give her mouth to mouth again and I lean in my cheek near her mouth.

I feel her soft breath

Shes breathing

I sigh in relief as paramedics push me out of the way and lay her on a stretcher

I glare

I break into sobs as I call Dinah

"Mercy- she. I- she" I say panic evident in my voice
"What's going on what happened?" Dinah hears the panic
"Come as fast as you can to the hospital" I say
"Okay" she says

I sob

Ally taps my shoulder to tell me to come on.

We are gonna follow the ambulance to the hospital.

||Mercy's POV||

I wake up in a hospital bed again.

I sigh.

Why?

I look around and see ally tense getting up rushing towards me

"Hey baby" ally says putting a loose strand of hair behind my ear
"Hey mum." I say
"You had another seizure, you need to eat baby girl" ally sighs
"Where's Lauren?" I ask
"She's out in the lobby, she had a break down so Camila and Dinah came to comfort her. She saved your life baby" ally gives me a sad smile
"She-she did?" I ask
"Yes. Lauren, me, and your mother love you so much we were all so fucking worried" ally says
"Can I see her?" I ask

Ally nods leaving to go and get her

Lauren walks in smiling as soon as she sees me.

"Hey" she whispers
"Hey" I smile
"I-i- uh" she stutters trying to find her words
"You saved me" I say
"I-I did. Yeah. I know." She stutters
"God I'm a fucking idiot" I sigh looking down
"No-what?" She says
"I didn't eat, which caused a seizure, which caused my heart to stop, which is now causing you to be anxious" I sigh pulling a hand through my hair
"No. I love you okay? I'm just a little jumpy. I did what anyone else would do. Just with love" she shrugs sitting down at the end of my hospital bed with her face in her hands
"I was just so fucking worried" she says
"I know" I say looking at the wall
"I'm sorry"
"Don't be" Lauren says
"I am, it's my fault" I sigh
"It's Ana's fault" Lauren lays a hand on my thigh

It's Ana's fault.

A/n

Hey guys okay. So ally and Stevie have broken up. Yes we all know.

I WILL continue this fanfiction. I'm not giving up on it just because of that.

But my little gay heart is broken because first Shannon and Cammie now Stally?

We all thought it was a Dinah shore prank.

Nope.

But I love all of them the Same as I loved them when they were together. So I hope you do too.

That's it lovely's

Have a nice day ❤️

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