The Butterflies Will Live Forever (Adopted by 5SOS)

Chapter 28

-Jasmines POV-

Ashton carried me to the room in silence. Mikey unlocked the door and we walked in.

The 2 guys were cuddling and watching some tv show in the lounge.

Calum was the first to notice us. "Oh, hey guys- woah! What's going on?! Why is she crying and bleeding?"

He started freaking out along with Luke and it just made me cry harder.

"Guys! Give her some space! We'll explain in a minute. Something really bad happened." Ashton sighed.

He started to rub my back to comfort me, but it hurt. I flinched and he stopped. "Does that hurt?" He asked.

I nodded my head into his shoulder. Someone lifted up my shirt and gasped.

"What the hell happened!?" Luke exclaimed.

"Let's sit down for this one." Ashton said. He brought me over to the couch and I could feel him sit.

"Jasmine got a phone call at the ice cream parlor, and stepped out side to answer it. After a few minutes we noticed she wasn't right outside the building. I peeked outside and saw a girl, around Jasmines size, about 20 feet away. I figured she probably wanted some privacy so I just let her be. After a few more minutes, she still didn't come back, so me and Michael went to find her. The person I thought was Jasmine, wasn't. I started freaking out and we were walking down the street calling her name, trying to find her. Then we heard someone yell 'over my dead body'. We both realized it sounded like Jasmine and we followed the yell to this ally, where She was pinned to the wall by some guy. He had ripped her shirt off and her pants were pulled down. He was pulling his own pants down and I pounced him. I beat him up until he didn't try to fight back and then I went to make sure Jasmine as okay. She was alright, other than her head bleeding and she was scared senseless. She freaked out when I called her 'baby girl', though." I flinched when he said that. I was peeking up at him through my hair. I could see him point at me and mouth 'See what I mean?'

"How about you explain what happened to you?" Ashton suggested.

That's when the anxiety kicked in. My brain filter was gone. If I thought it, I said it.

I told them everything that happened. Word for word. I told them what happened when Hannah called and everything about who she was. I told them what he said and what I said in response and what he did when he did it. I told them about how I gave up and called him daddy. I told them how I don't want to call Ashton dad anymore because it doesn't feel right and how it makes me feel gross, how it reminds me of what happened. I told them how I don't want to be afraid when someone calls me baby girl. I told them every single thought that crossed my mind.

When I was done talking I just cried into Ashton's shoulder and he cried into mine.

I'm such a pathetic baby.

Suddenly, I couldn't breathe. My chest tightened and my stomach started flipping.

Not this again.

My breathing quickened and I started panicking because I don't know why I'm having a panic attack, which just made everything worse.

Sometimes, my panic attacks are different than normal ones. I suddenly feel like there is someone, somewhere, spying on me, planning their attack or something. It's ridiculous, I know, but that's anxiety for you.

I quickly stood up and my eyes started darting around the room, making sure there was nothing out of the ordinary.

"Jasmine?" Ashton asked with concerned eyes.

I couldn't say anything. My breathing quickened even more. I stood there slowly spinning in circles, trying to make sure no one was behind me, ready to kill me, before Luke realized what was happening.

"Jasmine?! Breathe! You gotta breathe, babe. Come on. You got this. Breathe." He repeated as he made me sit in his lap. He turned my head so I was looking at him. I'm sure I looked awful, but I was too busy trying not to die to care.

"Focus on me. There's nothing else you need to think about. You're here with me and the other lads. We're sitting in our hotel room, talking. That's all we're doing. Think about how I'm breathing." He put my hand on his heart. "You hear that?" I nodded. He put my other hand on my heart. I could feel it beating almost twice as fast as Luke's. "Feel yours?" He asked and I nodded. "Make them the same speed. That's all you need to do."

He kept repeating that over and over until I was calm.

"I'm really sorry." I finally said.

"For what? Sweetie, you did nothing wrong." Michael said.

"For..." I paused and looked Ashton in the eye. I don't want to have to say it out loud, but I want him to know that I feel really bad for not wanting to call him Dad. "Everything." I said after Ashton and I made eye contact.

He was the first to hug me. I guess he got what I was trying to say.

"Don't be sorry." He whispered in my ear while he hugged me. "It's not your fault. I understand. Don't fret about it, though. We'll make you better. I promise."

I just nodded, thinking of a way to change the subject.

Suddenly, I remembered why we left in the first place. My eyes widened and I quickly turned my head towards Luke and Calum.

Everyone was looking at me, wondering why I moved so abruptly. All I did was stare at them, wriggling my eyebrows up and down.

Everyone laughed at me. Being the fan girl I am, I said "So, is Cake real or nah?"

They laughed again and the 2 boys looked at each other and slightly nodded.

"So.... Uh, me and Calum have both admitted that we are gay, and we both like each other. After a lot of discussing, we realized that we already know everything about each other, so there is no need to go on a date first. I asked him to be my boyfriend and he said yes!" Luke cheered.

I got up and ran to the bedroom with Ashton and Michael hot on my heals.

"Are you okay?" Michael asked. He was obviously worried about me, but when I broke out smiling, squealing, and jumping around, I think they got why I ran.

They don't need to see me fan girl about them in front of them.

After I calmed down, I changed into my pajamas, and we watched some tv before the guys fled to their own rooms. I had asked Ashton to stay with me tonight and he gladly accepted.

Finally, I get to sleep in peace.

Not for long.