The Chip

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

*STEFAN'S POV*

The day went well. We trained intensely and now we lie in bed. I lay awake, watching her silhouette. I know it's probably really creepy, and I know fictional characters do it all the time, but it's all I can do not to murder myself for dragging her into this.

I always hurt the ones I love. All I bring for them is the worst. I know I love Anastasia. I'm not going to lie to myself. I know what it feels like to love someone and I'm not going to waste my time being in denial. When I first met her, I thought she was gorgeous. Then I got to know her, and in a short time, I knew the feeling that settled on me. It was all too familiar.

I've always been blunt. That's what Si always told me anyways. God, I miss her. I never loved anyone after what happened to her. After her, I went crazy, my girlfriend at the time broke up with me, saying I needed to handle my shit. She was the last person I ever loved. Unlike, the old clichés, I didn't become a player after what happened to Si. Sienna was always the outgoing one out of the both of us. With her gone, I sank deep into nerd-world. I went from being one of the most popular jocks to the quietest mystery boy in a matter of weeks. The only thing that stopped me from going into oblivion was schoolwork. So I drowned myself in it. And if our school wasn't bombed before grad, I would have graduated at the top of our class.

Then Anastasia came along. She brought back the me who cared. She let me see that she wouldn't put up with my bullshit, and so, I talked to her. I understand that she probably doesn't feel the same way about me, because I know what it's like not to be able to trust people. the words I love you are too big a commitment for some people to go throwing it around. I get that. I'm just glad she isn't scared of me like everyone else.

She yanks me from my thoughts and rolls over to look me straight in the eye.

"I know you've been watching me sleep Steff." Busted. "However, I'm going to overlook that. What are you thinking about."

"How screwed up life is."

"Ooh deep." she says with a smirk. "No, but seriously, I've spilled my guts out to you, don't you think you should do the same?"

I think about it for a second, before nodding. If she's ever going to feel anything towards me, then she's going to know everything from the beginning.

So I open up. I start to let her see who I really am, and see if she's still up for the challenge of being my friend.

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A/N

Okay, so... please don't kill me just yet...

I know I completely missed last weeks update, and you probably want to murder me, (some of my amazing friends have already tried) but I am so, so, so very sorry!!! Last week was really hectic with school trips, singing performances, babysitting my nephew and overall, it was just really stressful. I know that all of you are absolutely amazing readers though and I really hope you all understand where I'm coming from, but yeah... This chapter is dedicated to every single person reading this because that's why I publish my works!!! 

Thanks!
~Dinithi

P.S, Booknerdswiftie21 are you happy now?! because I was laughing as I was publishing this, just seeing your face (stuffed with food, might I add) when I told you I would update today ;)