high school problems

Sweet dreams, shame, and guilt

 "H-hey h-Hannah, I like you and I would like to go out with you sometime, please," I asked. "Why would I go out with a loser like you?!" I jolted up, my heart raced and started crying I hate those kinds of dreams. It hurts me to even think of that moment, I'm afraid to I ask her because I'm afraid that I will be turned down, no one knows about the scars on my arms, bruises, and bad stuff that I do to myself at night. I'm not eating that much, getting that much sleep anymore, and many people are ignoring me, I guess that if I just left them no one will care or even notice that I'm gone, maybe I should go to another state or even better a different country, and I am so tired, not sleepy I'm just using that as an excuse and so people don't get worried about me this is what I really mean

Torn apart

Insecure

Really faking my smile

Extremely sad

Drowning in my tears

~~Morning~

"Hi my name is Sarah, Sarah Hanson and I already know your name so you don't need to tell me yours," she said. "Hi how are you and how do you know my name?" I asked. I was freaked out. "It's not important," she told me. "Yes, it is." I was backing away slowly. She was freaking me out because I never saw her before and she is not in any of my classes, I think that I have a stalker it's that creepy.