Toxic Bullet

Xox Love

Getting over Cellophane's death is not easy. It's been really hard, especially for Missile. It was sad to see her moping around, crying all the time. The poor girls only 9 years old, she shouldn't have to be going through this shit. I didn't only feel bad for Her though, poor Star. He loved her to bits. They had a thing kind of, they were always together. Like partners in crime. I was surprised at how well Kobra and Ghoul were taking it, Poison wasn't really showing anything towards it. She's all I could think about all the time. I wanted to get her out of my head but she always made her way back in. One night, I was taking a shower and I couldn't handle the pain of it. I cried in the shower and almost broke a rib when I slipped. It bruised but that's not the problem. I needed to get her out of my mind and system. I needed someone or something else to focus on. But who or what? I thought about it for a bit but nothing came to mind. Poison was already taking car of himself, he didn't need me at all. I woke up every morning looking at the red box on my dresser but I never opened it. I just looked. But I never looked long, just a glimpse as a memory. Then it hit me, it wasn't her death hat bothered me. Killjoys die every day, it's sad but we can't be sad forever. It was that box. I was curious and it was eating me alive. I needed to open it. Standing up off my bed, I walked to the dresser and picked up the box. Hesitating for a moment, I lifted the top and closed my eyes. I didn't want to look but at the same time I did want to. I heard the music then start to play, and opened my eyes. I gasped at the small killjoy spinning around in the middle of the box. She had painted it herself to look like me. It was also engraved which said "Dear Bullet, I love you with all my heart and don't forget that! I may not be your best friend, but you're always gonna be mine. I hope you like the box. Love you tons, xox Cellophane." I closed the box and set it on the dresser. The pain stayed but at the same time I felt better, I was glad it wasn't something bad. I read the bottom of the box which said that it was for my birthday. My birthday passed two days ago. No celebration because I only turned 19 which didn't even matter. I kissed the box and left the room. Everyone was in the living room sitting around sulking. "What are we gonna do today?" I asked. "Her funerals in an hour, lets get going." Star said, standing up and sadly waking passed me. I sighed and went back to my room. I took out a black dress from the closet and put it on, then I grabbed my mask and ray gun. I pulled on my boots and left my room, closing the door and walking out of the house. 

When we got to the run down church, a bunch of killjoys were there. I was amazed at how many people showed up, I thought it was only gonna be a few people. The church was almost filled. "Oh my god." I heard from many people's mouths. Oh yeah I forgot, they all think I'm dead. I walked down to the front row, all eyes on me. I'm not even saying that to just look popular, they were literally all staring at me. I sat down with Poison and Missile. Ghoul, Kobra and Star sat down next to Poison and I. Dr. Death Defying went up and started talking about how great Cellophane was. I felt kinda dizzy and every time he spoke it hurt my head. I closed my eyes and almost fell asleep right there. I don't know why I was so tired, I just was. I felt Poison shake me to wake me up and I leaned forward, looking around startled. "Sorry, they want you to go up and speak." He whispered. "Oh..uh.. okay." I said, standing up and walking up to the front. I stood in front of the big podium and looked around at all the killjoys with their masks up. I smiled slightly then began. "I'm not good at talking about people or trying to cheer people p, so I'll tell you what I do know about her. She was an amazing friend, hard worker, she was funny. I loved her with all my heart, she was like a sister to me. I remember, one day  she saved my life. We were out in zone 5 and I don't know what we were doing, but we stopped at a shack to get some water and some pigs pulled up. I didn't know what to do because I was new to a lot of things and she killed them for me. It wasn't a big save but it's a good memory. You don't get a lot of those anymore. She was such a great fighter and unfortunately we lost her. But her memory will live on forever, and her love. Never forget, I know I never will. We can't stay sad forever though, we have to move on. Keep fighting." I said, then left the stage. I sat back down and bowed my head as the killjoys clapped and the boys got up to help with the casket. I got up and helped to. I wanted to help, I felt like all of this was closure. I carried the coffin behind Poison and smiled the whole time out. Everyone put their masks on and followed behind as we put her in the ground. The casket was just an old wooden one, but it worked. At least she was close. I kissed a carbon coin, then flipped it down with the casket. It landed dead on top where I expected it to. I walked away, not wanting to watch them throw the dirt over her.