Toxic Bullet

Forgetting

All I could focus on was one of my friends being dusted. I bit my lip and nodded, following Poison out of the house. What I saw next was something I can never unsee. When me and Poison got out in to the front yard, Cellophane and Star were on the floor holding hands, neither making any move or sound. I felt the world around me get smaller and I started to feel like I was trapped, breathing was hard. I took deep breathes and found myself gasping for air as I watched Poison fall to his knees in front of the bodies. I looked around the bloody dirt, holding my head. I saw two dead dracs and foot prints. I then realized that this happened literally minutes ago, that means they might be able to be saved. "POISON!"  I screamed, running to Cellophane's side. I put my ear to her chest, I didn't hear anything. I ripped open her jacket and took off her thick shirt, then listened again. Barely a beat, but she needed help. "She's still breathing, w-we need to call Show Pony!" I yelled, Missile was already on the phone with him. "He said he would be here soon" Missile said through her tears. I kissed her head and applied pressure to Cellophane's wound. "Star's okay, he just passed out. I'll get him inside." Poison said wiping away tears. Missile went back inside and woke up Kobra and Ghoul. They were dizzy and sick, but they got up and tried to help best they could. I heard a car in the distance, there were two. I looked out and saw a white BL/ind car and a motorcycle coming this way. I pulled Cellophane up on my lap and tried to help her. If she was going down, I was going down with her. Her body was warm, but her face looked empty and cold. I kissed her head and pulled my mask up. When the car pulled up, I puled my mask back down and didn't shed a tear. I thought it was gonna be my last moment. All killjoys die with their masks on. I picked up Cellophane's mask off the ground and put it over her head. It didn't hide the fact that she was slowly dying in my arms but it took away a bit of the pain. But then I saw who was in the car, It was Dr. Death Defying. "Keep her away from the dirt, get her in the house to the bathroom. Hurry, now now lets go!" He called out. Show Pony got out of the car with two other killjoys. I couldn't make out who they were because they had full face masks on but it didn't matter. They took her out of my arms and I followed them in the house. They took her through the living room and in to the bathroom. They then lay her down on the groud and Show Pony closed the door with sass. I sat down in a chair praying that she would make it. "Don't worry dust angel, Pony knows what he's doing." Dr. Death Defying said, patting my shoulder. Poison was in his bed room with Star on his bed. I stood up and walked to the door way. Poison was sitting on the edge of his bed looking out the window with a killer look on his face. I sat down next to him and patted his back. "I'm not gonna let them catch me alive. None of us are. We will keep fucking running till our lungs give out." Was all he said before he got up and left the room. Missile came in and sat with me. "They almost killed us." She said hugging my arm. "Why are they after you?" I asked. She just shrugged then yawned. "You should get some sleep, lets go." I said standing up and walking her to my room. She jumped up on my bed and I tucked her in. "Don't get up okay? And if anyone rys to get in just scream." I said. She nodded and I smiled at her. I left the room and went to the bathroom door. All I heard was crying and nervous whisperers. I bit my lip hoping the crying was from Cellophane then left the door and went in to the living room. No one said a word.

When Pony finally opened the door to the bathroom, I didn't wanna look. I didn't wanna hear what he was gonna say. I already knew the crying was him. The two full faced killjoys left the house with bloody hands, not even closing the door. They came back in with a body bag, which sent shivers through my body. "I'm not a doctor, but I did my best and you know that." Pony said before leaving the house. "I'll be back later." Dr. Death said while holding the door open for the two faceless zone rats left. I didn't cry, or scream or fall out of my chair. No one really did. Missile was asleep so she wouldn't have known what was to come. I just sat up and let it sink in. The house seemed so small now. So squished, I was loosing air. I stood up and went outside, watching the two kids load the bag in to Dr. Death's stolen car then leave. It didn't hurt, yet. I took three deep breaths and looked around the desert. The world all the sudden didn't seem so big anymore. What I was seeing was desert for  years but what I felt was desert for days. Battery City wasn't far. Neither was zone 6. What was beyond, I wasn't lucky enough to know. All I know is this is my world and it's changed forever. They sky was empty and blue, like always. the hills to my left were purple and farther than they seemed like always. The trees and tumbleweeds were just nature being itself. Nothing around to see or look at. Knowing all I had to look forward to was death didn't scare me all the sudden. In fact, I wanted death. I mean, thats all we wait for anyways. We just live our shitty lives to in the end die. But all this world was ever gonna give me was death anyways, so whats the point of living? I looked back at the front door which was closed. I looked in the window and saw Kobra pacing the living room, tears running down his cheeks. I looked away, back up at the sky. I closed my eyes and took it all in. Nothing will ever be the same. I do miss my dear friend Cellophane, but all I can do is move on. Thats all thats ever gonna happen. I'm gonna keep moving on till I can't. Like Poison said, keep running till I can't. It's not that I wasn't taking it hard, I was just realizing that the world isn't what we seem. It's full of horrible things and people. It all happens for a reason. We die from sometimes what seems like the stupidest stuff, but it happens. I looked around the empty, hot but at the same time cold desert and closed my eyes again. In that moment, the pain seemed to go away. But what was cmign was much more. I took one last deep breath then went in the house. I sat back in my chair and listened to muffled screams and sobs from the other rooms in the house. "I can't believe this." Ghoul said. "You think it's hard on you guys.. you don't know the half of it." I said, standing up and going to my room. Missile was standing in the middle of the room looking out the window at the sky. "She died.." Missile mumbled. "I'm sorry." I said. "It's okay. She's okay now." Missile said then left the room. At least someone looked at it in a good way. All I wanted was to sleep. I passed what used to be Cellophane's bed and got in my own. I stared at the messy bed across from mine, noticing everything. No one made her bed since she last slept in it. Her pillow was all bunched, and her bed side table was messy with pills and her zap. I just looked, no touching. I didn't want to mes sit up. I lay down and stared at the ceiling. "You can't sit here being sad you know." I heard Cellophane say to me. Hearing voices, great. "I'm not sad. You're dead. Go away." I said looking around the room. She wasn't there. Neither was the voice. At that point I wanted to cry but I didn't. No one was in the room. Then I snapped. "No one's in this FUCKING ROOM! NO ONES HERE! SHUT UP!" I screamed throwing a book at the closet door. No one bothered to come in and ask what was going on, I didn't really give a damn. Let them be upset, I just want to sleep. I heard the nervous whisperers in my head but I couldn't make them out. I looked at the pills on Cellophane's bed side dresser but I didn't take them. I rolled over and faced my wall, looking up at the Beatles poster above my head. I smiled at John Lennon's smiling face and George Herrison's happy strumming. "H-here comes the sun" I whispered to myself. I started to doze off as I sang the song quietly to myself. I then passed out.