Insecure & Ebony

Cake

They say you can't have cake and eat it too. But ain't that's what you s'posed to do? Ain't you s'posed to eat it too?
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3 weeks later

A N G E L

It's been 3 weeks since the shooting and everything has been moving so fast. Chaniyah hasn't woken up since she got to the hospital and Anthony is okay but he has to stay there in they boring hospital room all day. Lani says he jumped in front of Chaniyah and took some of the bullets but her little body couldn't handle the 3 that pierced her 5 year old body. Anthony says it was as if the bullets were for her but someone so innocent didn't deserve that. I knew that there was more to the story than what everyone knew but I couldn't help but to think that it involved someone who wasn't shot. Like revenge or something.

"You like these?" Nalani said holding up a pair is nude heels in Steve Madden snapping me out of my thoughts.

We had been in the mall all morning searching for gifts for Khyran and Anthony for Valentine's Day which was in a few days. So far I had gotten him a couple of shirts and some shoes.

"Yea...yea I like them." I said as I sat on the bench in the store looking over to a baby store named Gymboree that was in the mall.  I still wasn't sure if I wanted to keep my baby. I was only 3 months and I knew my baby bump would become visible soon so I didn't have that long to make my decision.

"You wanna go look over there?" Lani said noticing what I was looking at and I nodded standing up.

"I'll come over when I buy these shoes."

I made my way over to the store. I smiled at the children running around the store. I walked over to the newborn section and touched the a shirt and skirt set and knew that this was something I waned. I couldn't kill my baby, something that grew inside of me. But I knew I couldn't have Khyran and my baby. I had to chose but I knew I'd be wrong if I chose a man over something that I have life.

"Angel." A voice said snapping me out my thoughts and I looked out the window seeing Khyran's sister.

I quickly exited the store putting down the baby clothes and meeting her by the door of the store.

"Hey Kayci...how are you?" She smiled at me and then looked into the store I was in.

"Good. Why were you on a baby store." She chuckled and I did the same.

"I was thinking of a friend of mine."

"Oh Chaniyah? I heard Khyran talking to my mother about that...I'm sorry to hear."

"No it's fine things happen. Who are you here with."

"Oh Damion. He went into GameStop you know how men are. I'm surprised your not here with my brother...I know he must spoil you." I smiled at his name.

"He does."

"You two seem happy. You love him?" I blushed looking down.

"I do." She smiled.

"I can tell he loves you too. He hasn't been this way with anyone in a while." Before I could comment Lani came up to us looking. Between Kayci and I.

"Who's this?" Lani said smiling and Kayci smiled back.

"Khyran's sister. Kayci this is my cousin Nalani."

"Hey Nalani." She said and Nalani waved.

"We gotta go of you want to make it to see Chaniyah and Anthony."

"Who's Anthony to you?"

"My boyfriend." Nalani replied and Kayci nodded.

"Can we exchange numbers? We can hang out sometimes. My brother and I aren't as close as we could be and I'd like to at least show him that I'm trying."

"Of course." She handed me her phone and I handed her mine.

"Thanks." She handed me my phone back and we hugged.

"Well I gotta go Damion's probably ready it was nice seeing you."

"You too." I said before me and Nalani made our way out.
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Getting to the hospital after getting our stickers we first went up to Anthony's room.

We walked in and he was eating a pudding cup that they had given him for lunch and watching Juice which was one of the many movies Lani had brought for him. Since he's been in here she'd been taking good care of him and I knew he appreciated her a lot.

"Hey fatty." She said climbing into his bed with him and snuggling up into his arms.

"Wassup Lani." He said pecking her lips and she wiped some chocolate off the corner of his mouth.

"Wassup sis." He said to me and I smiled walking over to his bed and hugging him. I sat in the chair by his bed and put my hand over my face.

"Wassup? You good?"

"I'm fine. I just don't like seeing you and Chaniyah in here."

"It ain't shit Angel. Don't blame yourself for nothing that happened. You didn't hold the gun some dumb ass niggas did and we gonna handle it when I'm out. Don't stress yourself alright?" I nodded sitting up.

"Ima go see Chaniyah." They nodded.

"Just tell me when you're ready to go I know your probably tired. We've been out all day." She said bringing up the fact that this baby was taking a toll on me. I nodded and walked out the room and going into the Elevator into the children's ward.

I walked into the room and walked over to her small bed and bit my cheek to keep from crying. The nurse who took care of her always brushed her hair and washed her face off and kept her looking clean so if you handing known what happened you'd think she was peacefully sleeping but I knew better. Underneath her hospital gown were 3 bullet wholes. One in her arm one in her leg and one in her stomach. The doctors said it was better that she was asleep since she'd be in unbearable pain if she was awake.

"I'm so sorry I let this happen to you Niya." I whispered kissing her small frail hand. She was a baby and she didn't deserve for this to happen to her. She probably didn't even know what a gun was.

"I love you baby and your Bestfriend Khyran is gonna find out who did this to you." I said before kissing her forehead and when I turned around Cynthia was right there.

She looked like she hadn't slept in days. She had bags under her eyes and he hair was tangled and unkept.

"Cyn-" she put her hand up shaking her head with her eyes closed.

"You were like her sister Angel. A daughter to me...I would've trusted you with her life but not no more if something happens to my child I'll never forgive you." I frowned.

"Don't come back."

"Cynthia whether I was right there or in the house I couldn't have stopped what happened and I realize that now. You can be upset and you have every right to be but I love Chaniyah you should know that and your gonna be really bitter if you keep such a mindset." I turned around and kissed Chaniyah's forehead them turned to her mother.

"Have more faith in your daughter. She's strong and for you to think she can't fight this is ridiculous." I said before walking out.

I no longer cared. I had other things to worry about.
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Getting home I put my hair up stripping from my clothes leaving myself in my bra and boy shorts. I went over to my dresser sitting on the edge of my bed pulling out the abortion pills. I ran my nail over the top letting a tear fall down my face. I stood up with the bottle walking over to my bathroom and shutting the door.

"I'm so sorry baby." I whispered touching my firm stomach.

I filled up a plastic cup with faucet water and sat it aside while I pulled out two pills. I held them by my mouth realizing what I was doing.

"What are you doing Angel." I asked pouring the pills down the drain  and throwing the cup away.

If Khyran really loved me he would believe what happened to me and he would except the fact that I was pregnant and I was gonna have this baby.
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