Insecure & Ebony

Spotless Mind

Change is inevitable. Why hold on to what you have to let go of? Like did I really break your heart? Was it all my fault?
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A N G E L

It was Valentine's Day and even though I thought I would enjoy this day it's just being spent the same way it always has. Me in my room eating junk and watching corny Valentine specials on TV. I'd been texting this girl from school named Vanessa and she's really cool so we were gonna hang out today.

I brushed my teeth and washed my face then went into my room grabbing my panties and bra before jumping in the shower. I had lost my boyfriend and my baby in the matter of a month but I was gonna be okay. I wasn't gonna sit around and mope like I had been I was gonna move on.

I went into my room putting on whit sweater with red stripes that fit kinda baggy with jeans cut at the knee and red sneakers. I took down my hair that I had recently flat ironed and combed it parting it down the middle. I grabbed my MCM purse and put on a silver necklace that I had gotten from my mom for my elementary graduation. I missed her and I was sad that she had missed my middle school graduation and my highschool one. No matter what I knew that she was a good woman no matter what she had done before she went to prison.

When I got the call from Vanessa that she was outside I grabbed my keys and my phone making my way outside to start my day with her.
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K H Y R A N

"So where my shit at Khy." Money said furious when he came and realized most of everything we had was gone. I scratched the back of my neck having no clue.

It was Valentine's Day and we were here fixing our shit. Not that I had anything to do anyways but I know Ant did. I was probably just gonna chill with Moni like I had been doing. She was cool and good company and I knew she wanted me. We never kissed or anything besides hug and I didn't know if I wanted to take it there with her because I still loved Angel. At least I think I do.

"Me and Ant came here the other day and it was gone I don't know if we got robbed or its somebody in here-" I was interrupted by him snatching me up causing me to clench my jaws cause he knew I hated that shit.

"You know you like my son Khy, you and Ant but my money is not to be fucked with. You gonna pay me back Khy you hear me? All half a million of it or that's your ass." He said roughly shoving me back.

"And yours" he said pointing to Anthony as he turned around and made his way back to his car.

"What we gon' do man? I go it but not to be spending."

"Look I got some money stashed in my room and my parent's place I got it man don't worry when I get a chance I'll go get it." He nodded in relief and we made our way to my Lexus.

"So what was up with Angel the other day?" He looked at me suspiciously and I rolled my eyes.

"You ain't care then. What's the change of heart?" I shrugged.

"I just wanna know."

"She miscarried the doc said it was stress." He said shaking his head in sympathy and I raised my eyebrows.

"Damn I know she probably going through it."

"She is. I had to leave the hospital room cause she broke down and I ain't wanna see her like that. She said she tired of shit like this happening to her. I ain't know about her mom and dad though that's crazy."

"Yea she told me about that." I said feeling bad.

"She brought that on herself though." I kept my eyes on the road but I know he was looking at me crazy.