It's hard to fall asleep that night. It is just after I took a night bath that I remembered that tension between Ian and Xander.
I just laid awake all night. Tomorrow's Monday so I don't know what else to do. I guess I'll just stay at home.
Why would all of this happen at the same time? I mean, I just hid a secret to my bestfriend about my relationship with her ever-since crush. And the result when she found out is not that good―well, worst.
I wonder if I should hide it to Jillian or not? What would his reaction be? Hate me? Or will he accept it and think "everything will be fine" ?
But he did so much for me already and I can't take the risk of losing him.
I kept on asking myself infinite questions. Should I? Or shouldn't? What are the possible results? ... I hope this is just a math equation because at least, that has formulas, but this... I don't even know how to start!
I try to explain to myself and remind me the greatest mantra I keep on repeating everytime: "Everything is in the way they should be. It might not be the way you wanted them to, but they are where they truly belong."
Ugh it's no use! Why would this thing be the right thing? I should keep secrets from the people I love because I don't want them to get hurt.
Why am I in this part of the world while others are enjoying their lives?!
I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep so that my consciousness will vanish including all of these problems.
The only problem is just I can't. I can't even sleep.
Ugh, life!
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Novela JuvenilStefannie Luck is a typical seventeen-year-old girl. She reunites with her long-lost crush, has an amazing bestfriend, and receives an instant perfect family... Almost. How could she handle her life with revelations that will truly turn her world in...
