Shawn Mendes Imagines

Jealous

It's my 10 year anniversary with my best friend  Shawn. He's been by my side since primary and we've been inseparable since. The twist to our friendship is that I've been in love with him since freshman year. Shawn doesn't know about it because I know it's going to ruin our friendship forever and I don't want to risk that. He means so much to me to lose that kind of relationship with him.

Shawn has had his fair share of ladies in the past up until recently when he started talking to a girl at our school named Lauren. She seems nice..to everyone else but me. I'm very protective when it comes to girls around Shawn. He thinks it's jealousy when I get too out of hand. Yeah, I do get hella jealous because I don't get to seem as much as I want to but it's also because I wish I were the girls he holds in his strong arms, the ones he kisses so softly with his gentle lips and the ones he cherishes every waking moment with.

Shawn is also protective around me when it comes to guys. He's never really around as much now because of Lauren. I started hanging out with Justin, a friend from a chemistry, to keep me company.

"You're going to have to tell him one day Y/N. You never know what might come out of it" Justin takes a bite out of his apple. I open my plastic baggie of strawberries and take a berry in my mouth.

"He's going to reject me. He doesn't love me the way I love him, Justin. It's never going to be that way" I mumble sadly, taking another strawberry into my mouth. Justin takes one as well, finishing his apple like the food monster he is.

"He likes you, Y/N, I definitely see it in his eyes whenever you guys talk. It's kinda cute" I blush. Justin goes in for another berry but I slap his hand away, "Ow! I just want a be—"

"Stop eating my food you pig!" I protest

Justin rolls his eyes and pulls out a bottle of water from his backpack. "What are you and Shawn doing for your big anniversary tonight?" He questions. I shrug, "Shawn is surprising me, I hate surprises".

Justin nods his head, "I'm surprised he is actually going to cancel on his little girl-toy for once in his hormonal life". I shrug again, "Me too, I'm honestly surprised he remembered. He hasn't spoken to me in 2 weeks! I just hope he doesn't make last minute plans with her" I roll my eyes at the thought of Lauren.

"Someone's a jelly belly!" Justin teases. I slap his hand away as he tries to tickle me. "I am not! I'm just bothered" Justin smirks, "That's called jealousy Y/N"

I sigh out of defeat, "Whatever! What about you? You're also a hormonal boy, who is in the life of the famous Justin this month? Is it Kimmy? Or Gina? Ooo! Or is it—"

"Fuck you! I don't go after them anymore. They're a waste of time and condoms" Justin sassily gets up from his seat to throw away his trash. I giggle from his sassiness and disturbance.

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I start heading out into the student parking lot to my car. My shoulders ache from the heavy books in my bag and my arms cramp from my binder. Unlocking my car and throwing school work in the back seats, I head up to the driver's seat and start my engine.

The ding of my phone interrupts me and I grab it to see who it is. My phone lights up as I click the power button, Shawn's name pops up with 'iMessage' underneath. Unlocking my phone I read the text out loud, "Hey Y/N, I'm so so so so sorry! I'm going to have to cancel tonight! Maybe friday?"

Are you shitting me. The most important day of my life! Of our friendship and he decides to cancel! No fucking way, no way am I letting this happen. I angrily start the car and reverse out of the parking lot and drive straight to Shawn's.

My heart is racing 30 b/m. Emotions of all kinds begin to bubble in the pit of my stomach. Maybe Justin's right. I am jealous. Shawn wouldn't just cancel our big day for anything, but maybe for someone. Anger takes over my head as I reach Shawn's house, parking right in front of his drive way.

Walking towards Shawn's front door with angry steps, I bang on the front door with a fist. Shawn's car is parked up front so he's home. I hear shuffling going around before the door finally opens, revealing a tired yet shocked looking Shawn as he seems me.

"Y/N, h-hey! What are you—" I shove him inside, going inside. "Why did you cancel?!" I scream, tears already spilling.

Shawn looks at me with guilt and concern. "I'm sorry Y/N but I had plans with Lauren after my  meeting with  Andrew and—"

"What the fuck?! It's our anniversary and you want to miss out on it for her?" I quickly wipe away the tears resting on my cheeks.

Shawn's concerned, sad face turned into an angry one, "What do you mean? I know it's bad I'm missing today but we always have next weekend! Lauren is leaving tomorrow and I want to spend time with her before she leaves—"

I'm just going to have to do this now..

"Shawn I'm in love with you!!" I scream.

Silence takes over the both of us. I had closed my eyes as those last words spilled and I can't open them to face him, I cannot face rejection. I slowly lower my head and grab my things and head out. Shawn hasn't moved from his spot.

I finally lift my head as I approach my car again. The tears and sobs just kept coming. I'm so embarrassed..I should've said something else. At least I got out of there. I hover over the steering wheel and let the tears fall.

A tap on my driver's window stops me and I look up to see a teary eyes Shawn. His eyes were a little pink from crying I assume and his cheeks tinted. He gives me a small wave and I open the door.

"What? Here to tell me that I'm the worst friend ever and that—" My rambling is stopped by Shawn's lips on mine. Shocked and confused I go along and kiss him back.

The moment I've been longing for is happening, something I'll cherish forever.

Shawn pulls back and gives me a hug. He pats my hair gently which calms me. "I love you too, Y/N" He whispers in my ear. I pull back to face his beautiful features and kiss him again.

This is the best anniversary I've ever had.