Ariana's POV
i sat down on my bed . shopping is so much work.. i put away my new items and changed my clothes.
what should i do....
i put my phone into my ihome speakers and selected ' undone ' by hailey reinheart.
( search it up on youtube. )
ugh... i thought about my past. like school days .
- flash back-
" you ugly slut " zayn pushed me against the lockers.
and it's only 3:30. why are they doing this to me in school?!?! i hope they caught. i winced as i hit my head against the cold floor.
" why didn't you push her even harder?! " Harry laughed. no no no... that hurt enough.
i let out a little sob. crap.
" shut up you whore. wanna get us caught don't ya? " and then louis kicked me in the stomache. god that hurt!!
i let out a scream i need to fight back. i threw my awfully heavy textbook at zayn. it hit his eye. good. bitch.
" oh no! zayn! your going to pay little bitch " Harry shireked .
and he grabbed my head and slammed it against his knee.
that plan backfired. i feel to the floor unconcious.
--- end of flashback ---
i opened my eyes to see my shirt stained with tears. god, i can actually feel the pain. i went to my medicine cabinet and took some meds, my stomache is hurting.
*knock * knock
" who is it? " i yelled. to only hear a shout from louis,
i opened the door. full on rage. i really don't want to see him.
so i punched him.
" OW YOU LITTLE WHORE WHY DID YOU DO THAT?! " he clenched his eye. i knew it.
it was fake.
them trying to my friend ,
but im stronger now.
like what the song said.
" what doesn't kill you makes you stronger " i don't even know why i agreed to have a duet with them. fakes.
" YOU BASTARD. YOU CAN'T HURT ME ANYMORE! TOUCH ME YOU FUCKING DIE! " i yelled.
i just . hate. flash backs. depression.
itjust too much. i know i haven't been getting hurt phsically. but my brain and stomache is always hurting...
" shhh. i don't want to hurt you... " louis smiled, while rubbing my back.
" no. the pain you guys caused me back then is just too much. i just... i don't want to do the duet with you guys anymore . sorry . butcan you leave " i said standing up from the floor .
he nodded and walked out.
i sniffled and walk back to my medicine cabinet.
what if i disappear?
will people miss me?
i don't have much fans anyway... most of them are haters.
no one loves me.
no one.
i breathed in . and took out a whole jar of of medicine.
no one loves me
i opened the jar
im worthless
i got some water out.
im a whore, slut , bitch im ugly , fat ..
" SHUT UP!! " i yelled.
and drank/ate the pills.
i ate about a handful.
i want to disappear.
i nodded to my thought and got at least half a handful and drank/ate that too.
i start to cough.
is this what it feels like?
coughing to death?
i fell to the ground still cough.
my lungs are closing.
good you little bitch die . right now right here.
i shook my head to that voice.
im hearing another one.
think about your parents.
i nodded still coughing.
think about your fans , anf friends . stay alive .
i stuck my hand into my thoart trying to get the pills out.
i need to survive. i'll get through this ...
no your doing a favor to the world . no one wants you. your a waste of space .
thats true no one wants me.
yes they do!! someone will always want you.
thats not enough. i give up.
life id just too hard. im tired of keeping my emotions in. i want them out.
my vision starting to blur.
i guess....
.
.
.
i choose death.
then i fell.
to the ground . and i will never see the light again.
ever.
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FanfictionAriana has been bullied since the third grade. after her ' incident ' she decided to move some place near paris. she starts to post youtube videos of herself singing, ranting, etc. but when she starts being famous, what will happen to her bullies?