Later That Night
I was now dressed in a pair of black joggers, a black and white shirt with Japanese writing on it and my black and white Jordan 13's. I put my long curly hair in the neatest bun I could make and decided not to apply any make-up since I was just going out with my dad and not going on an actual date.
I was nervous, anxious and excited all at the same time. I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I was nervous but I was anxious and excited to see my dad again since I haven't seen him in so many years. I wondered what he looked like now. I wondered what his laugh was like. I wondered if we had anything in common.
"Hey." My aunt said entering my room and interrupting my thoughts.
"Hi." I simply replied.
"Where are you headed?" At that moment I remembered that I didn't tell her that my dad was taking me out to dinner.
"I-Uh, I'm going out with my dad." I said hesitant of telling her.
I didn't want her to be upset that I didn't tell her sooner. Then again it's not like I'm going out with my friends or something so it's nothing I really need permission for because he is my dad, right?
"And when were you going to ask me?" I paused and look at my aunt like she had two heads.
"Um, with all due respect auntie I don't need your permission."
"And why don't you Angel? Huh? Because that's your dad, right?"
She stopped talking and looked at me, I guess waiting for an answer.
"Yes." I replied.
"Well, no. You're wrong. I am your appointed legal guardian. I decide where you can and cannot go. Although you father is trying to get back into your life that doesn't mean he gets to make decisions on his own about where you can and can't go without asking or informing me."
"But he is my dad! Why can't I go anywhere with him without asking you? I want to be able to see him when I want to. You can't control my relationship with him!"
"Angelina, I know you better lower your voice when you are speaking to me. I am your aunt and you will respect me as such."
I started to steady my breathing and calm down. I took a minute to stop and think about what she said and she was right.
"I'm sorry I yelled at you. I just want to have a relationship with him. I have felt a piece of my identity has been missing since he hasn't been around. I lost my mom and I just need to feel complete. I don't care what he has done in the past. I just care about right now. I need him in my life."
By now I was crying my eyes out. My aunt sat down next to me on my bed and hugged me. We stayed like that for a few minutes until I pulled away looking up at her.
"So, can I go?" I asked with my lip poking out.
"Girl, put your lip back in." My aunt said starting to laugh.
"Yes-." My aunt started to talk but I cut her off with me attacking her with a hug and kisses all over her face. She started to swat me away.
"Listen, Angel. You can go but please next time at least tell me beforehand so I can know where you are. I never want to try and control your relationship with your father. I just want to know that you are safe. Okay?"
"Okay, auntie. I love you."
"I love you more mamas."
We hugged and we both got up from my bed. The doorbell rang and my heart started to beat really fast as nervousness and anxiety was starting to take over again as I realized that my father could be the one ringing the doorbell. My aunt went to go answer the door while I went to the bathroom to check my face and my outfit for the last time.
