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"Becca, i'm back.. "

No answering.

I entered my room. I didn't exactly know what i had expected, maybe that she would have prepared something to wear for me..

But my room was like i left it before.

"Rebecca?" I went out of the room again and knocked on the door across mine.

Nothing.

So i just entered, she was on her bed leaning with her back at the wall behind.

The difference between our rooms was that she liked it more comfortable, like she has a chain of lights above her bed and mostly it was quite dark in her room just the chain shining, while my room was modern, white and bright.

But today the shutters were open.

"What?" she asked annoyed.

Wow, i really didn't know her like this.

"No, what's with you actually?" i contered.

She looked at me, putting her book away.

She sighted.

"I know that you don't like Tommy the way he likes you. That's not okay. You should stop that. You'll hurt him."

I was speechless. I didn't expect that subject.

"Ow. Well honestly that is what i wanted to d.."

She didn't let me speak along.

"When?" she asked upset.

"Beck, i don't know why this is any of your business?"

"Please leave."

"What??" i couldn't believe.

So I opened my closet myself. But all I really saw was cotton, cotton and cotton.

There was no time to overthinking to much, the meeting with Marina took a time.

So finally I just decided for little black dress, a red necklet and my black louboutin heels. My Daddy gave me them last Christmas, maybe because of his bad consciens because he always was at worke when i was a kid.

I straightened my actually already straight hair and put some light make up on with light red lips.

I looked into the mirror at the closet door.

Hm. That wasn't as bad as I thought.

I put the camera in a big black bag and left, calling Tommy that he didn't have to pick me up.

I would take a taxi because i didn't want to go through the paps beside Tommy. I wanted to stop whatever we had so it wouldn't be good giving them pictures for a second time.

His voice was disappointed.

I arrived at the place where the burberry show was presented. It was like the last time at the Gala party but now it all was more outside, like a lot of people where standing there giving interviews.

I felt awkward, like a pap because i wasn't with someone important and yeah at all i wasn't a vip by my self so i actually had to hang around with my camera.

I never wanted to be like this, obviously stalking and annoying people .

But i couldn't just stand around and let the chance of my life pass so I decided to act like some PR guy in the crowd, when suddenly someone tipped my back.

I turend around, almost losing balance on my high heels.

He just laughed.

"Haha, Rose are you alright? I didn't expected you here, wow you look so good." Niall grinned friendly.

I also was kind of shocked.

"Hi. Yes all good and thank you. Are you ehm alone here or..? Why aren't you on the carpet?"

We both stood offside from all the attention.

"Aw, i don't like it being always spotted like this and yes actually Harry persuaded me coming here with him but.. he just met his date.. so.."

He really was a nice guy like I had expected and i wasn't nervous at all talking to him he always made me feel comfortable.

"His date?"

Niall raised one eye brow.

"Interested on Harry?" he laughed.

"Well no, totally not! Just curious."

"Gabriella Wilde.. I think she is also one of the models tonight."

I was stunned. What was that dating about three diferent girls a week.

I shrugged. "Never heard of her" i smirked.

"How about going inside together? Or are you waiting for someone?" He held his arm so i could link arms with him.

But all i could think was that I maybe should end the Tommy thing right now. Before any rumors could start.

"Is it possible, that we'll meet inside?" i asked Niall.

"Which seat number is yours?"

ow, i hadn't thought about that before of course this was a fashion show, I remembered myself.

I looked at my phone with the passcode Marina sent me before.

"Second row, S24" i read.

"Oh. I'm not sure about the division but i think i'm not there haha" he looked kind of sad.

"I know we will meet afterward anyway." i smiled at him and wanted to go away but he unexpectedly hugged me. That almost distracted me. But I enjoyed it.

I waited for Tommy behind all the paps as i saw him getting out of the green car.

His eyes got sparkling as he saw me. Oh, i felt guilty.

"Rose, so beautiful." he smiled softly.

I looked away.

I stopped him as he wanted to grab my arm.

"Tommy..."

"What? Rose? Tell me" he was surprised.

"I.. I think, we.. this.. should, not, I.."

He held his breath.

"Do you want.. to say.."

"Yes. I mean, I.. I really like you but i can't .. you should find a better girl, someone who.."

He intereupted me " It's okay." he passed me and walked to the carpet and the tv guys.

My jar pretty felt on the floor. That was it? He didn't want to hear more .. Oh.

I watched him talking to the press, he smiled and also was charming and flirting.

I couldn't stop blinking.

Well okay. I didn't know why I was sad now, that was what I wanted, wasn't it?