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Epilogue

This is it.

Today, I can feel my veins in a rollercoaster traverse, riding up and down in ebullience, making me tap my feet fretfully. I have never felt more irritated of myself before, not even when I fell, blacked out to a coma and later waking up with the biggest and nastiest scar on my forehead. I have my share of scary encounters which made me cry like a baby but not something which makes me shake and fret.

Well, fear and nervousness can be quite different, is it not?

I remember the time when I got instilled with the thought that I would live my whole life like a spinster in the cloak of virginity. I wonder who named a pure girl virgin. I should Google on that. Oh, where is my skull heading to? When you have bullies as your best friends and those other mean pests as your friends, you won't live a happily ever after without tears and running nose. One thing they said the most was I would live without anyone to love and I would end up a dry hag. Wasn't that just spiteful, but that was almost true until a miracle happened.

Yesterday, I walked to our church at the realization that I needed blessings; thus I walked in only to be encompassed within whiteness, a beautiful feeling of sovereignty. I sauntered slowly taking my time, sat on one of the beautifully carved wooden benches and immersed myself in prayers. As I opened my eyes, the only thing I could see was love, compassion, and acceptance. I felt at ease, and after a long time, I really knew how to be sincerely happy. I only prayed for my virtuous future and happy endings. This resulted in a beautiful dream just before my white wedding showing me His divine intentions. The vision I saw was indeed a sight to behold because what I felt was heavenly. In a large meadow with all types of white flowers... I saw an aisle in between. I walked in search of its end, and at last, as I reached what was supposed to be the end, I saw Alex in a charming white tuxedo. He turned slowly as he felt my presence, amusingly widening his eyes.

I could feel the nervousness of the earth as she stood still and time jingling to an abrupt end. I was the only one moving on this entire planet to a perfect place. When I reached to him, he opened my veil which scattered like many glittery snowflakes. To someone in front of him, he said I do and leaned closer to kiss me. I got drowned in his kiss; letting me know about my body more personally. I woke up with this tingles in the morning of my wedding which soothed my bones; littering unwanted jittering-nerves into every corner.

While I was staring blankly at my mirror floating into the dream, someone snapped from behind and said it's time. Judie, the wedding planner walked away taking along her strong whiff of Channel perfume which in turn collided with sweet feminine fragrance along with many giggles who later walked in dressing immaculately in a knee length satin white dress adorning a black silky sash. Finally, Fabio walked to me with a wide smirk, dressed brilliantly in an off-white tuxedo and black tie. His hair was combed back sleekly which gave his stubble a push forward framing him more handsome. Can someone be this attractive, oh, wait till I see Alex. Fabio kissed my forehead and teased the entire way up to where Alex stood for being heavy and that Alex won't be able to hold me in bridal style. I knew he was trying to cheer my up but what can I do; I sobbed. Thanks to Nat who ordered the best beauticians for doing my makeup in water and smudge proof thus I can cry as much as I want without any fear. But, in between my sobs, I did manage to tell Fabio that no matter what, I can always carry Alex if he is plausible. Fabio's laughter boomed quieting the whole ballroom where the guests turned to look at the bride. Me!