forgive me || dean ambrose story

day twenty five-

*please read the authors note at the end, it's very important! Also, recommend listening to a sad playlist to this if you'd like, I did and it make me cry my freakin, eyes out, enjoy!*

He'd taken too many pills. The doctors were unable to revive him after he fell asleep in the ambulance again.

We tried to help. But they said he didn't vomit nearly enough pills back up to survive. He was ninety-nine percent positive to loose the battle that he did.

He died. Almost three weeks ago now.

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Rory James-

"Fuck!" I screamed scrunching up the sixth piece of paper and throwing it angrily across the room.

"Hey, hey, hey, what's up?" Seth burst through the kitchen door within seconds, he skidded across the wood flooring and held his arms out in front of him in a stop motion as though stricken with worry in a simple second.

I only glanced at him before growling in anger and annoyance as I threw my hands to my temples in fists. "I'm not giving a reading, I can't write one. I can't say one, I'm not doing it. I can't. I've gone through nearly an entire booklet of paper Seth, I can't think of anything justifiable to write, everything sounds like shit!"

"Rory, it's two am. . honestly? I thought you had fell asleep on the sofa and were screaming from another nightmare. ." Seth sighed, seemingly in relief but I grit my teeth pulling out another sheet of paper as I placed it in front of me on the coffee table.

"Woah, you're still writing that?" Roman walked in not a moment later, glass of water in hand and hairbrush in the other.

"Yes I'm still writing this you asshole." I snapped at him and he held his hands up, Seth glanced at me as if to say; what was that for? Before Roman sat down on the arm of the sofa where Seth thought I would be asleep.

"Why don't you start again in the morning?" Roman yawned and I glared at him, within an instant I'd thrown the pen at his head and he yelled out. "Watch it!"

"The funeral is tomorrow you inconsiderate bastard!" I spat and he held his hands up once more, I was so on edge lately that neither of the guys had involved me in anything, only speaking bits and pieces because it was as though I'd been on a month long period.

"I know that," He sighed, standing up again. "What I meant was, why don't you just not use a prompt, you knew Dean so well, do you really need one?"

"Yes I need one." I snapped, reaching around the table to pick up another pen which I'd thrown earlier this evening. "W-what happens if I freeze up? This is the entire of Dean's family we are talking about. All of his friends, everyone. Heck! Even Mickey's family will probably be there, since he knew them so well too, not to mention your family, Seth's and everyone else on the roster! This is a very big deal Roman. A huge deal!"

"Relax Aurora," Seth pulled me up from underneath my arms to get me off of the floor where I'd been sat for a solid four hours. "I thought you had this sorted the day before yesterday, I thought we'd agreed on that one?"

"No. It was far too long and soppy." I pulled the one Seth was talking about from underneath the coffee table itself and scrunched it up in front of him.

"I wanted it to be short, sweet and meaningful because honestly, I don't think I'll be able to speak that long before breaking down. ."

"You're thinking too much, honestly Rory, Dean loved you that much that he wouldn't give a damn what happened. . he'd be glad you even turned up the way he treated you sometimes," Seth pulled the notepad away from me and threw it at Roman.