jaebum
*flashback*
"look i'm not trying to be rude but i just don't know what you want me to do right now," she said looking at me uncomfortably.
dammit jb why didn't you just keep it in your thoughts. i know you wanted to tell her but you should have found the right time.
she stares down at her hands and i feel terrible.
"um sorry i can't really think right now I'm going to be late and my teacher is going to kill me. I'll see you later."
and she's gone
i wait for her to get a lead and then walk in the same direction.
to soyeonie: hey im really sorry i just couldn't really keep it in any longer and we've been hanging out a lot recently and i don't really know...
i waited for her response while walking to the training center. i walked past her class and saw her dancing.
she caught me staring at her through the glass and quickly turned away. i walked toward my class and tried to get her out of my mind. when it was lunchtime, i went out with jinyoung to the convenience store and saw a lot of other trainees there. i wondered if soyeon was inside as well.
we walked to the back of the store and grabbed what we wanted. We then paid and then went outside to eat.
We were almost done when I saw soyeon walking in with jihyo.
"soyeon!" I stood up and walked over to her,"can we talk for a second?" Jihyo whispered something into her ear and smiled at me hope walking away.
she looked down and I began to talk.
"look I know I shouldn't have said that to you and I wasn't planning on it I just didn't talk to you for a while and honestly I missed you. I know that it's cheesy and shit but honestly,"
"look jaebum. i just don't have time to be in a relationship and I can't risk this. I've given up so much of my life to train for this and o don't know what will happen if we get caught. They can't really do much to you but what would happen to me?? My future in this business would be ruined. I just can't do anything right now and you know it."
i shook my head," I know I know I'm being a dick to tell you this. And now that I said what I said it's okay. I wasn't sure what I wanted you to say. But I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off my chest and I don't mean to put it on you. I might have just ruined our whole relationship but if I didn't do you think we can still be friends?"I was out of breath.
"Of course! Sorry I reacted like that I was just surprised that's all."
"great now we can forget the memory of this whole conversation and never talk about it. Never."
she giggled and nodded. jihyo walked over,"soyeon we have to go get our dresses for the wedding!!" she said while simultaneously smirking at me.
"ok ok it's kinda early but whatever. Bye jaebum!" She said and waved as jihyo dragged her down the street.
I smiled and walked back to jinyoung.
"you idiot" was the first thing I heard when I got back.
"You told her you liked her didn't you? Jaebum you idiot."
"I know I know I know it just happened but we're all good now."
"I bet she's not!! It's clear the two of you like each other and now she's feeling all weird like she has to tell you! You've ruined her jaebum! How could you she was such a good friend," he said with a sarcastic head shake of disappointment.
"Whatever just shut up and eat."
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SORRY FOR THE SUPER LONG DELAY WATTPAD DELETED MY WHOLE DRAFT SO I HAD TO RESTART AND THEN GOT REALLY BUSY!! THIS CHAPTER IS WEAK BUT GOOD THINGS ARE COMING ALSO IF YOU HAVE ANY GOOD IDEAS LET ME KNOW BC IM UNCREATIVE ASF!
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