Afraid

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Casey POV
I woke up my head hurt and my throat was dry I saw Dallas by me and he smiled but then got a serious face " hey um do you remember me "
What of course I do I didn't say anything " it's been seven years " my eyes widen I looked bat the calendar it was Seven years just then a nurse came by " who changed  the calendar " Dallas laughing  the nurse stared to laugh she  she left the room  " it's not funny" I said bitterly " well to me it is " he walked over to me grabbed my chin and gave me a kiss I kissed him back I pulled away " sorry I should've asked " I just nodded my head " can you please leave " he looked Hurt and walked out after about an hour I was sent home I was there for 23 hours I went to my house
2 weeks of not going to school or outside of her side
I  haven't been out in awhile  I just don't have the will anymore  I looked at myself I looked like shit I took a shower changed to my outfit

I did my hair and all the stuff I heard knocking on my door " hi Mrs. Matthews is Casey here" "well yes she is Casey someone's here for you!" I walked down stairs to see  Evan there with  his smile I ran up to him and hugged him I don't know what I just did he hugged back and told me to go some where he took me to dinner we had everything in common  the same song, movie ,drink even the same color we laughed and talked back to my house I looked to my left and saw  Dallas house in the corner of the street his house is blue and has a fence around it well everyone in our neighborhood does I saw him with a  cancer stick between his lips and him giving me a disapproval look I haven't even noticed Evan  I felt something on my lips  it was Evan I quickly backed away  " sorry it's just I um I- "
"You should've asked "
" i know sorry I didn't mean to"
" it's okay"
"Casey "  my eyes widened at the sound of my name I turned my head to the left and saw Zoe staring at us in shock and tears at her eyes " I trusted you "  she whispered she turned around " no Zoe it's not like that I don't like him " I said to her pleading for her to listen "  save it gutter slut" it hurt me a lot that one of the people's loved the most called me that " Zoe " I whispered "it's not what it  looks like he came to me " " I said save it Matthews and here " she threw a box at the floor  " Zoe I it I its not what it looks like I swear-" "  shut up I hate you "
" I ran inside I couldn't handle it " I looked out my window and saw Evan walked of and Zoe running towards Dallas I closed my curtains when he looked at me while talking to Zoe  after about an hour they were gone I went outside and saw the box I took it out I went to my room and opened it it was her journal and a shirt,  drawings and pictures of us I looked through them all except the journal one drawing was two birds it said   Lets get this as our friend ship sign what do you think and Also two of us makes one big sum it was the other drawing . I cried I put it in the box and put it on my top self I went outside and  walked to my truck  I don't care where I go I just need to be somewhere I backed out and I almost hit Zoe she came around my door and opened it she pulled me out and gave me a hug she cried " I'm sorry I didn't know " she cried  I hope Dallas didn't tell her about my disease " that is  Evan took you out dally told me " oh thank god she didn't  know " it's okay I pushed her off of me she gave me a smile I  climbed back in my trucks he got to the passenger seat she told me directions we stop at the edge of town and climbed on my truck and saw the stars and talked a deep conversation  we got in my truck at 2 in the morning " I'm sorry again for not-" " it's okay I wouldn't believe me to " we both laughed we sang  electric fell all the way home  when I arrived I dropped Zoe of at her house and went to mine which is two houses Down  the light at my house was on oh oh I  walked in my mom stopped me  "  Casey "
"Yes"
" I'm getting in trouble for you you haven't been going to school if you don't go I'll have to go to court you go out with ur friends all the time now you always reek of cigarettes and I'm not stupid I saw you and the two the girls come and get you and u came home wasted "
"I'm not in the mood mom"
"YOUR NEVER IN  THE MOOD ANYMORE CASEY IM TRIED OF IT
"  ME TOO IM SOOO SORRY THAT I HAVE A  FUCKING DISEASE THATS GOONG TO KILL ME IM SOOO SORRY THAT I HATE MYSELF SO DAMN MUCH AND IM SOOO FUCKING SORRY THAT YOU AND DAD DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMO-"
That moment she struck me in the cheek she had never done that I snapped my head back and looked at we in shock she was in shock to "Casey i- " " you hit me" I whispered " you hit me " "
Casey you made me-"
" save it " I  ran upstairs and packed my  an outfit and I put on my pajamas  I went down stairs
" where are you going "
"Somewhere where they won't abuse me " with that I walked out I didn't want to see Dallas so I can't go there neither Evan I just went inside my truck lucky me I always leave the keys in there I turned it on and fell to a deep sleep
~~morning~~~~~~
I woke up I looked around me it was sunny my neck was stuck in place and my car was completely off  oh no no I left it on dam it I quickly got out I saw Dallas  he looked at me and turned his head to the other direction not looking  at me  I got inside and changed quickly  I went back out side and I checked it was only 5:39 damn it thought it was 7 I saw Dallas  he  was looking at the ground he looked sad I walked over to him "  Dally"
" don't call me that " he said
" sorry "
"What do you want "
" a hug " I said my voice cracked I do t know why but I've been sad
"Well go find someone's else "
" no not any type  of hug I want your hugs "
He looked up  he had a look of confusion he got up and went inside his house sometimes I don't get him I said  walked back to my house calling Zoe to see if she gets gas with me (AN Dallas POV is gonna be long)
Dallas POV
I can't get close to Casey or it would all happen again that friend that had the disease was my other ex god I miss her like I said I won't date a person who has any type of disease that's going to kill them I just don't want to get hurt again. I went Inside my bathroom and took an antibiotic two and looked around man there's nothing to do I haven't brought a girl home sense Casey being at the hospital man I need to get her outta my head I called a few of my friends which is surprisingly weird that they aren't 6 feet under I lit a cancer stick damn I need to chill out on these I still had Casey Present on my counter man I love her and it ain't about bringing her home with me and then Leaving her this is one I feel it I want to hug her kiss her and care about her I honestly regret what I said to her the first time I ever met her I just hope she feels the same way
Casey POV
I don't know how I feel about Dallas and Evan I don't know neither do I want my teenage years to be like those movies and books (a/n oh honey you don't even know what u said)
I like Dallas from the start but evan
was growing on me "so ya I can't believe she did that right "
I snapped out of it " y-a right "
Me and Zoe seemed to be going apart I hate it 0" Zoe I'm going to tell u the truth " " I'd like to hear it"
" okay so you know how the hospital visit drained me so I didn't go out for weeks so I stayed at my house and I felt depressed "

Zoe chuckled at that
" so I stayed and I got ready for no apparent reason when I heard the door bell rang my mom answered it and he asked about me my mom said she was upstairs and that he called me up I went and we talked and he said he wanted to go out so I went not as a date just two friends and to be honest I like Dallas a lot so when Evan was talking to me I was looking at Dallas and he was looking at me and Evan kissed me that's when you came and saw ." Zoe laughed and gave me a hug " I knew u wouldn't do me like that I talked to Dallas and he told me what he saw which leads to your story and I called ur house and ur mom explained it to me " I gave her a hug I gave her a piggyback ride the rest and she gave me a piggyback ride to my house .

Dallas POV
I probably should be nice to her I went and saw that rent was do next month shit shit I don't have enough so I do what I do every month  steal I got ready I got my gun ready to I've been like this ever sense my dad beat me up alcoholic bastard when my mother left me and I joined a gang two people died there sucks I was only close to them so I left to Tulsa Oklahoma which is we're I'm living right know I got out to do what I do I saw Casey and Zoe coming back. I felt bad but ignore her Dallas plz just do it or you'll get hurt. I honestly wish I was dead to be honest