Afraid

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Stacy and me were on those weird rides and May was using the bathroom after we got of we went home it was 4 so we had time to just relax May wanted me to go somewhere secretly I told Stacy to stay and to talk to my dad which she was happy to  May Gave me directions and we were at he grave yard May got out and puked all the food she had I ran out and helped her after she was done she cried I held her
" I miss her Casey " she said between sobs " I do to May " I said my voice cracking " Casey tell me why didn't you go to nither of them "
" cause it would break me "
" Casey I need to tell you something "
I got nervous
" yes May "
" I went to the doctors 2 weeks ago and they found that I have leukemia"
I hugged her tighter and didn't say anything I was stuck frozen
" so that's why I cut off my hair so you wouldn't notice the bald spots and falling of the hair " I had tears falling I wasn't gonna hold any back anymore " how long "
" a week left" I sobbed and held her even tighter If that was possible she held me and cried " Casey I haven't lived my life yet you see I wouldn't be complaining if I was older but I haven't even see anything at all I haven't even completed one goal in my life "
I felt bad I didn't say anything " it's unfair " I looked at her
" that you out of us three is going to live a long happy life you don't have disease that's gonna kill you ur happy "
I flew off I hate it when people were say stuff like that and they don't even know about me " don't talk May you don't know " it's true Casey and you know it "
" May no stop talking "
" well sorry that your living your life "
" May you don't know what i have or how it goes in my life"
She kept blabbering on and on till I lifted my shirt and showed her it her mouth fell open she had no words " I'm sorry I didn't know Casey I "
" it's okay "
"How did they "
" they found out when I was 4 and it started to get worse and worse so ya by the time im 34 or 39 I will die "
She didn't say anything She got up and hold my hand " sense you didn't come I want to show u something "
We walked through the line of grave stone she put me where my mom was I cried again it had 11 roses around them May took my Hand and took me to another one it is Zoe's it had one black rose " I put roses on them Zoe's favorite color is black and so I always give her a black rose and your mom the others "
" thanks " I said crying a little bit more " Casey when I die I want you to put a flower on all of our graves "
" okay I'll take you home "
My hero from foo fighters came on me and May sang that I dropped her off I was think thinking maybe I can take her to LA but I need the stuff to go sense we live in Tulsa Oklahoma I walked in a threw keys at Dallas which he woke up
" oh shit thought you were awake "
" naw it's cool "
"I need you to get me those mobile homes "
" why the hell do you want me to "
" we're going to La for three days "
He seemed happy he got up and left I was going to call May
Ring.
Ring.
Ring .
No answer I called again
" hello " she answered I sighed
" Bitch thought you left me "
" naw Bitch not yet "
" you got your passport "
"Ya Y"
" ask your mom if u can leave the house for um 4 days "
" Y Casey your scaring me "
" just ask her okay "
"Okay fine let me call you back "
She called me back after 10 minutes
" she said okay "
" ok I'll pick you up on Monday remember today is Saturday so pack a week of clothes "
" Casey What's going o-"
I hanged up
About an hour or so dally came back and it was a good size Dallas May and Stacy is gonna go to LA it's gonna take time but it's worth it
" ok what I'm going to pack "
" okay " wait let me get something he went to another room I ran to his drawer and opened it I took out a wad of cash
I quickly pushed it closed I hid it the cash in the suit case I hate doing This but I'll pay him back I told my boss that I went to the doctor and said I was off for the week he said okay Dallas called his work they let him off only for 4 days I quickly packed a lot of clothing and put it in the mobile home I saw Evan coming down the street to me he smiled and waved I smiled and waved " hey Casey I haven't talked to you in a while he said " he hugged me I hugged back we started talking and having a great conversation he then said something that hurt me
He kept talking about Zoe
" she is the one I loved but she kept ignoring me "
I felt heated I wanted to slap him
" Do you know how much pain she was in "
" no "
I never wanted to say this
" it's your fault she's dead"
" it's yours to if you haven't walked into the street like a maniac she wouldn't have been dead "
" you hurt her " Casey
" you killed her" Evan
" you abused her" Casey