Not What I Thought You'd Be | Shawn Mendes ~ Camila Cabello (ON HOLD)

~ Chapter Ten ~

"When she finally found something that can make her happy, her past came crashing down, making her think she doesn't deserve happiness."

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~ Shawn's POV ~

//PAST\\

September 17th, 2012

I hop into the car eagerly at the thought of seeing Camila after our first kiss. The way it felt was too good. The kiss was... well, indescribable. I smile to myself as I drive towards the school. I am really hoping to spend both of the breaks with her.

I reach the school after ten minutes. I step out of the car and sport Zac and Camila walking inside the school. I jog up to them and greet them with a warm smile, they return the smile and we walk inside together. I stand beside Camila as we head towards homeroom, Zac gives me a sad look and shrugs. I look at Camila and notice she's been trying to avoid my gaze. Something is definitely wrong.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I ask her as I pull her by her arm.

She tries to wriggle her arms out of my hold but I tighten it. She stops trying and turns around to glare at me.

"Just leave me alone" She says as I feel my heart tightening. I freeze and she pulls her arm away. "I don't want to talk to you again." She turns her back on me and walks in class.

I stay frozen in place, unable to move. I thought after the kiss, it would have been different. Did she not like it? Whatever it is, it is upsetting her a lot and I'm not taking this matter lightly. I run after her to class and quickly sit next to her before she can object.

"I told you to leave me alone." She says with pain in her eyes but she quickly covers it up. I try to figure out the emotions passing on her face, before I know it, she flings her bag over her shoulders. I quickly grab her wrist and pull her back down on the table. She tries to free herself but that only causes me to tighten my grip.

"Sit down." I demand. She looks at me with anger just as Ms. Matthews heels clatter in the class.

"We will talk after school." I state. With that I let go of her wrist and focus on the lesson.

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I close my locker doors with a thump and rush to Camila's last class, knowing she will try her hardest run away before I reach her but I won't let that happen. I run to her class and grab her hand as I see her heading towards the school exit.

Hah! I knew it.

"Camila, we need to talk." I say in a cool tone. She looks taken back my tone and nods.

Well no one will kiss me and ignore the next day.

I guide her to my car and cross my arms. She looks nervous and scared. I immediately soften up and tilt her chin up to meet her eyes. She looks so fragile and innocent.

"Tell me what happened." I demand in a soft tone. I move my hand to her cheek and caress it. She leans on my touch and I feel my heart flutter. I watch her as her lips tremble. I feel a bit guilty now for being hard on her.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been hard on you. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I say even though I want her to tell me.

She sighs in relief and opens her eyes. I stare into her beautiful brown eyes and feel the adoration.

"What do you know about me Shawn?" she asks. I am a little taken back with what she said.

"I don't understand what you mean by that." I say. She steps back a bit, leaving my hand longing for her touch already.

"I mean, do you know about anything that happened in the summer." She quickly looks away when she says that.

I did hear something about the football captain dying in a car crash but I don't get what that has to do with Camila.

"Um, the football captain died?" I ask. Her eyes glosses and I instantly hold her in my arms. She sniffs lightly and steps out of the embrace.

"Yes, Ethan Lagodia, the football captain." She says with pride. "He used to be a member of a charity group until he-"her voice cracks. I quickly hold her hand, she sighs. "When I was fifteen, I didn't care about anyone. I smoked and drank at every part and spent nights with almost every guy." She says, tearing up. I wipe the tear away with my thumb and nod so she continues. "I didn't know what happiness was and Ethan showed me. He helped me and made me want to be a better person. He loved me so much and I always wondered why. We both were together for six months and in that time, I changed so much. I changed for the better. He showed me ways to follow to be better. We both loved each other. Before his death, I broke up with him. He was so pissed, I regret breaking up with him because he spent his last words on me -" she looks at me with broken eyes. "After his death, I was left miserable. I lost my way all over again. I didn't talk for weeks and never ate anything. I felt emptiness every single time I tried. I started going to therapy sessions and that is when I finally accepted his death." she sobs. I pull her closer to me and hold her as she cried.

I feel my heart racing looking at her like this. I have to help her, I want to be the person who she looks up to. This was really hard for her to tell me and I am so grateful that she told me.

"Listen, everything will be okay. I'm here for you." I gently stroke her hair.

She pulls her head up to look at me. I wipe her fresh tears and smile at her.

"You are the only hope I have." 

At that moment, I close the distance between us and crash my lips on hers, with hunger and need. She responses quickly with the same force. We stay like this, kissing, unaware of the time and place. Just lost in each other. 

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Hey guys!

I know I haven't uploaded in a really long time but I am trying to. I am currently traveling so I don't have a lot of time. Although, I am trying. My main goal right now is to right around two chapters a day and upload one every day.

I lost interest on writing as time passed by on the lack of support I got before but I will still continue.

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