I've started this journey sort of thing to outlet my life and to make sure it's take able everywhere. I wanna make this safe for me and not have the classic worries of hiding from my parents or someone seeing it.
So this is how it my urge to tell someone but not exactly tell anyone started.
One night, I dreamt of a guy. Not just any guy, a guy I had a crush on. He left school though and moved half way across the world. We used to be good friends, I kept contact with him for a decent while long. But as the days got on, I started to lose contact with him. But suddenly, one night I dreamt of him. Not just him, but that we got together. Now as I girl the joy I felt over that dream and the worry is tons. Worry because I know I'll never see him again and this means that if my crush on him still exists, I'm going to be heartbroken. Really really heartbroken, as when he used to be here, he gave me clear signs he liked me but I ignored them. Brushing them away as friendship acts. I miss him a lot, a lot. Life seems so much more boring. I honestly don't know if I still like him or not, but I know I care for him. Despite loosing contact, he will always have a special place in my heart as the guy I first loved. Love or not, idk, but the first guy to like me back for me. My retarded and crazy yet so silent and awkward self. I'm scared but the butterflies in my stomach won't leave. I MISS HIM LIKE CRAZY, but hey, serves me right for reading the signs wrong.
Let's just say ppl, this is it for now, byeee
Love,
V. Anz
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RandomFears that consume me to my very core. They make me doubt myself and everything about me. I hate it.
