The rant book

27/09/16

So a today and my group of friends went out together and we hav a small class so we invited all the girls and yeah but only one turned up . We hav a strength of 10girls and our gang was 4itself so there was 5 of us. But the thing was that the one girl that turned up doesn't talk to us much and we aren't close to her. So basically we made a plan to go "home" at a certain time after which aft the girl left we wld all meet up again. Now honestly this was srsly bitchy and stupid cuz it wasn't going to work out. However this wasn't the main problem... A girl from my gang was having family problems and she told it to the other 2 girls and not me. Now naturally I don't bother about these things unless they somehow are told to me by someone else and well they were. Person with problem is M. Let's name this girl L who told me. So L told me how M was having problems at home and she told me how they Two and my bestie talk about problems like these Everyday. As a matter of fact I was not offended by this. I know that people don't tell me stuff and I wasn't surprised. However the tone she told me with just hurt me so badly I cldnt help be hurt. You see I'm an introvert with trust issues. As it takes people Long to earn my trust I assume that they are true friends who hav made the effort to earn my trust. Now tell me if I'm wrong for making this assumption but I don't think so. Anyway L said it in such a way that I felt left out. Being left out of my already small group of friends really hurt me. I don't know why but they love leaving me out of stuff except my bestie cuz she rocks and understands my problems of being left out. So yeah, I was really hurt by that and when I get hurt all feelings leave my head and heart until I take my revenge. I know this is so totally wrong nd retarded but I can't help but be like this becus of my old friends and my old relationship problems when I was younger. I don't know what I exactly wanted to type or say today but I've already had a talk with my bestie about all this and she has done an awesome job of comforting me but I couldn't stop thinking about it so I figured a wattpad rant would do me some good because a few other times in a similar situation the wattpad rant really helped me... I'm sorry all those out there who actually are gonna read or hav read this crap thinking it was a book but I just need an outlet to my stress and a better option would be to talk to people but I'm not a good talker and I just need listeners so yeah ...
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V. Anz