If I Could See You Again

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Hi! Chin here. Thank you so much sa pagbabasa. Sana hindi kayo naaasar sakin. Dahil pumatay na naman ako ng isang character just like Johann (Silver Strings) Sorry na po. But let me tell you the History—HAHA

I had a crush since 1st year college. He's so handsome! As in and so fashionable. Lagi ko syang tinitignan kasi yun lang naman yung kaya kong gawin. As if naman kaya kong makipagusap sa mga nagiging crush ko diba? Torpe kaya ako.

Anyway, That guy—is a Gay. Sabi nila. Pero it doesn't matter naman diba? When you like someone, You need to accept everything about him/her. Hindi yun dahil lang sa gwapo at pogi sya. Kasi pag ganun, Your feelings are just bullcrap. Ibig sabihin nun hindi mo talaga sya gusto.

But hanggang crush lang ako sakanya kasi i think he just reminded me of my first love (which is a Gay too) Ewan ko ba. Ba't ang exotic ng taste ko sa lalake. Pero Promise! Gwapo talaga. Grumaduate na lang sya lahat lahat pero di man lang nya ako nakilala.

Kaya, Nabuo ang story na 'to. But before that—gumawa ako ng tula para sakanya. Remember The titles of Aya's paintings? Yun yun. Naisama ko nga rin yun sa Carrie eh. The title of that poem was "Please, Notice Me " and it goes something like this..

The bus i rode that drove me home,

Was slow and gentle just like the face I have known.

The light of the cars that passing by,

Are like your eyes that shining bright.

That night is seems so dark and cold,

And it's slowly piercing inside my soul.

I kept seeing your face inside my head,

It's inevitable, my poor heart starts to shed.

I wonder if i could stop the time,

I wonder if i could suppress this feelings of mine.

Taking a small glimpse at you wasn't really my Intention,

But I always ended up on hoping to get your attention.

Why is it so hard to love somebody you can never have?

Why is it so hard to be somebody you wished you could be?

Why is it so hard to fall for someone who doesn't even notice you?

Why is it so hard to stop this feeling even though i know you could never love me back?

I'm just like a bus that always passes by,

Slowly keeping it pace for me to see you smile.

But it aches to see that you wouldn't even look at me,

And deep inside, I know that you could never ever love me.

I hope i could stop myself from being so foolish,

That i could get you and momentarily be selfish.

I want to end this silly thing and run away,

But my feelings for you are just too stubborn and it ain't going away.

See? Nagiging mala-Lang leav na ko! Sosyal diba? 

Anyway, Wala talaga sa plano ko ang magkaroon ng Happy ending 'tong story na 'to. This is my farewell story. At dahil di kami nagkatuluyan ni crush eh dapat lang di din magkatuluyan si Momo at Aya. Aba damay damay na 'to! Ano, sila lang masaya ako hindi? So Unfair! Haha

And so that's it. I like the feeling of loosing something. Mas nakakapagsulat kasi ako ng maayos pag may pinanghuhugutan ako. Pero sana talaga may Momo din ako sa buhay ko ngayon. Masakit tanggapin na pati sa real life mahirap magkaroon ng Happy Ending. Nakakatawa. Ni hindi ko nga alam kung san ko pinagkukuha yung mga linyahan nila. Basta bigla na lang akong umiiyak habang nagsusulat. Mukha akong tanga.

Akala ko nga pag natapos ko 'tong story na 'to eh makaka-move on na ako. Kaya nga Farewell story eh. It's like letting go and moving on. Pero damn! Pag nakikita ko yung mga pics nya sa FB, Nagdo-Doki doki na naman ang puso ko. Hayup na nilalang! Ang gwapo talaga walang jo! hahaha So ayun, Sige hayaan na tutal crush lang naman eh. But still nakakaiyak pa rin. Bakit di man lang ako nakapagpa-picture sakanya bago sya grumaduate!? WAAA. Hahaha

Anyway, Maraming salamat sa pagbabasa ulit. Sana talaga napaiyak ko kayo at naramdaman nyo yung sakit na naramdaman ko. LOL

Adios Amigos! Let's all be happy okay?

PS. Christine din ang name ko ah? Baka ako na yung tinutukoy ni Aya? Baka sakin na si Momo. Hahaha Joke. XD

Please like my FB Page din. Nagpopost po ako ng mga artworks ko dun. Baka makita nyo kung gano kagwapo Ang Momo ko. WOOHOO. XD