The story of us

Life's Unfair... like usual

I wake up like I always do when I'm at the Mathews house, to the smell of cooking food, and laughter. I get up, and notice Riley's already up. I grab my clothes that Riley made me put out the night before, and rush to the bathroom. I get ready, and I don't put any makeup on, todays not the day.

"morning" I greet everyone at the table, I see that my place is already set, they always make me feels part of the family.

"morning, peaches, how did you sleep?" Riley asks passing me a plate filled with my favourite food.

"Good, why is everyone being so nice, is it my birthday?" I joke, taking the plate.

"Cant i just be nice to my bestes friend" she asks pouting, and now I know for sure she needs something.

"What do you need?" I ask shoving fork full of egg into my mouth, she giggles before she answers.

"I really, really want to borrow you blue pumps" she says, her hands clenched together in a praying position, I laugh.

"You mean my favorite blue pumps that you can't fit" I say taking big gulps of my orange juice.

"I can try" she says pouting.

"sure, if you can fit them go ahead" I tell her she smiles, and hugs me. She runs to the room, and I can hear her ragged breathes while she struggles to put the shoe on. I sit there, waiting for her to realize, its not going to happen.

"Maya..." she whines coming out of the room, I shrug, and Auggie laughs. we're walking to the subway, and Riley's chatting away, and i'm zoned out like usual, until i hear.

"I'm going to ask him" she says stopping me in my tracks

"Ask him what?" I ask, she's still walking when she answers me

"what happened in Texas" she says still skipping, and my heart drops, she knows, is she angry.

"What do you mean, what happened in Texas?" I ask playing it cool. She answers me when we get on the bus.

"He's been weird ever since that last night, I want to know what happened" she says reapplying her cherry lipgloss, okay I'm in the clear, at least for now. we get to school when I see him, he's waiting by her locker.

"lets go straight to class, we can study for the test first block" I ask trying to divert her attention. she looks at me shocked

"Maya Heart, being prepared, i never would if guessed" she jokes, i laugh, and push her towards the classroom, and away from Lucas. we study, and the bell rings, where Lucas comes in, he looks like he's about to ask something but Mr Mathews interrupts him.

"okay the tests are on your desk, no talking" he says, and I've never been so happy for a test In my entire life. To my surprise, the test comes easily to me, i find myself cruising through every question. I'm the first one done, and Mr Mathews looks pleasantly surprised.

"Good job, Maya" he whispers sending me back to my desk. I spend the rest of the class trying to figure out ways to talk to Lucas before Riley does.

"That test was extremely hard" Riley says as she opens her locker, I shrug, and she looks surprised.

"I found it easy, surprisingly" I tell her, while looking around for Lucas

"Hey guys, how did you find the test?" Lucas asks popping up from no where, I might be panicking.

"Lucas, I need to talk to you" I blurt, they both look at me shocked that I called him Lucas, and that I want to talk to him. I pull him along with me to a secluded hallway, this might have been one of my many fantasy's.

"We need to talk" I say, as my nerves set in my mind begins to blur.

"What happened in Texas need to stay there, you can't tell Riley" I blurt, he looks at me his yes wide.

"Maya, I would never" he says sincerely making my heart melt

"Heart focus" I tell myself.

"Good, Riley's gonna ask you what happened, so we need to find you an excuse as to why your acting weird, why are you acting weird" I ask hand on my hips, his face flushed, and he scratches the back of his neck, his tell, he's nervous.

"I haven't,.. Okay maybe I have, but I don't know why" he says avoiding my eye contact

"Listen Lucas, you can't act weird, just forget what happens lord knows that's what I've been trying to do" I say forcing him to look at me.

"It might be easy for you Maya but I can't just brush my feelings under a carpet" he whisper yells causing my skin to break out into goose bumps.

"Lucas, you don't have feeling, especially for me" I say trying to smack some sense into him. I don't let him talk I just walk back to Riley, and her tapping toe.

"What was that about?" She asks once I open my locker, my palms start to sweat.

"Nothing, I was just asking him why he was acting weird" I lie grabbing my art portfolio, she looks at me with an intense stare.

"So,... What did he say?" She asks hands now on her hips, i don't like how adult like she's trying to act.

"First off, dont act like your older than me, secondly he just said he's under some stress, since schools almost finished" I lie. Her hands slide down by her sides, and she tilts her head.

"That's what he said?" She sounds confused I nod, and shut my locker.

"Huh, and I thought he had feelings for someone else" she says linking our arms. I shake my head, and we head to art class. Art class the class that always makes me fee better no matter what, until today. I can't stop thinking about what Lucas said

"I can't just sweep my feelings under the carpet" what does that even mean? He makes me so confused, first he doesn't feel the same, now he doesn't know!

"'Maya that's a very powerful peace" Mrs Roma says. She stares at it for a long time.

"You have inner turmoil, a boy, your confused, angry, and upset. This comes out perfectly in the painting" she says her hand gracefully caressing her chin.

"You got all that I thought it was just a whole bunch of colours" Riley says looking over my shoulder, I stiffen.

"Maybe it's just a bunch of colours to you, but to artists it's much more deep" she tells Riley. After class is finished, I throw out my painting, I don't want a reminder of this in my house.

Lunch is excruciating, I kept avoiding eye contact with Lucas, and he noticed. 

"Guys, I actually have some news" Lucas says, he looks nervous, but he quickly covers it up with an easy smile. 

"Pappi Joe, invited us back to the farm" he says now staring at me, my boy stiffens, and my mouth goes dry

"What, when?" Riley asks excitement lacing her words

"Next week, when schools finished, he wants us to come for the summer" Lucas answers, making my heart beat faster, if that was even possible.

"That sounds amazing" Riley says jumping up and down. She takes my hand, and bounces us up, and down, I'm gonna throw up.  Of course we ask, and of course they say yes, except I don't know how I'm gonna pay. 

"Riles how am I gonna pay for this trip?" I ask falling into her bed, she looks at me annoyed

"Mom has free flights" she says not looking at me, I stare at her confused

"What? Since when?" I ask, she shrugs. I guess there really is no way out.  Of course I tell them I couldn't possibly, they tell me to stop being crazy, and before I know it schools done, and I'm packing. Maybe I can salvage this trip, just no emotional explosions. God I hope I can do it.