Nandito nako ngayon sa office nung Mr. Jacinto-jerk na yun, yes I'll call him that since it sounds fitting naman e. Nakarating kasi ako dito nang eksaktong 10 am katulad nang sinabi niya sa phone at sobrang nagmadali pa ako only to find out na may boardmeeting pala ang loko and now, I have to wait for at least 30 to 45 minutes sabi ng secretary niya since kanikanina pa naman daw nag start ang meeting at hindi ito pwedeng istorbohin dahil mahalaga ang agenda ng meeting na yun. Of course I know!It's not like I will make a scene there just because I'm annoyed at how he fooled me, yes I may not be a college graduate, but atleast I know how to behave and I have my manners. The nerve of that secretary!
Ngayon naman, she's trying to make me feel conscious and threatened dahil kung tignan ako ng sekretarya niya ay mistulang gusto ako nitong ilibing ng buhay, for all I know, may gusto lang ito sa boss niya and since may girlfriend nga yung Jacob na yun, wala nang pagasa si ate girl, we as if naman meron siya at the first place. I doubt it! Hmmp!
Sobrang tahimik dito sa loob ng opisina niya at ang tanging maririnig mo lang ay pag galaw ng mga kamay ng wall clock nito at ang mahinang tunog na naggagaling sa aircon. Everything feels sophisticated, but unlike Alex's office, mahihirapan kang maging comfortable dito. It's like this office was designed to make other people except Mr. Jacinto feel inferior and uneasy. His authority is written and evident all over the whole room, I wonder how he can manage to stay here all day without ever feeling drained and imprisoned. I guess, sanay na talaga siya sa ganito, he must have been raised to be used to this kind of environment.
Naalala ko tuloy si Ms. Sasha Brookes, pangalan pa lamang nito aya alam mo na na hindi siya basta bastang babae. Pakiramadam ko ay isa itong model at professional, someone that will make you feel self conscious and insecure without trying to do anything. Ano kaya ang pinagkakaabalahan nito sa buhay? Jacob told me on our first meeting that she's into films, is she an actress? Kung artista ito at nasa California siya, posible kaya na ang girlfriend ng isang Jacob Jacinto ay isang hollywood star? Just by thinking about it makes me feel so small and intrigued at the same time. And if that would be the case, then I will be a messenger between a business tycoon and a hollywood actress, and that is downright incredible.
Since I was 12, pangarap ko na noong makapunta sa hollywood at makapagtour. Gusto kong mameet ang lahat ng artista na nasa favorire kong books at ginawan ng movies, pero never pa akong nakapunta dahil kapag mag totour kami noon ay palagi lang sa Asia, so my mom and dad promised me that they will give me momey to have a vacation on my own to California with a hotel in Hollywood after I graduated college, but then everything happened, my mom died, my dad refused to live, our company got bankrupt, our house was taken from us, my sister leave us, I stopped college, and my dreams including that California dream was all gone. And now I'm stucked on this absurd job with that uncompassionate and inconsiderate Mr. Jacob Jacinto. I hate my life.
I am in the middle of these thoughts when suddenly the door opened and I nearly jumped on shock. Grabe yung puso ko, hindi man lang marunong kumatok.
"My gosh! Don't you know how to knock? I nearly died of heart attack!" I blurted. Hanggang ngayon ay ang bilis pa din ng tibok nito, sobrang magugulatin kasi talaga akong tao, buti na lang at wala akong sakit sa puso.
"Are you dead?" he boringly asked.
"Of course not!" Now I'm getting frustrated.
"Then stop whining." he said. "And one more thing, why would I knock on my own door and my own office, hence my own building?" pahabol niya.
"I don't know? For right manners I guess?" Sagot ko.
He did not answer, tinignan niya lang ako sa mata, may nasabi ba akong masama? He's now looking at me as if he's looking through me, now I'm scared. Sana hindi ko na lang sinabi yun. Sometimes I wonder if my mouth has a life if its own, masyado ako nitong pinapahamak. Next time, I would remind myself to plaster it para hindi na makapagsalita.
BINABASA MO ANG
For Her
RomanceThe letters and words were not for her, but they're hers. The effort was not for her, but it's hers. She was fine that way, until everything felt like a lie, just like her very own name. Can this lie bring them the truth? Can this lie bring feeli...
